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traumaphdandme.bsky.social
Fluctuating levels of despair 🎠🌻🏳️‍🌈
@traumaphdandme.bsky.social
PhD drop-out. Now a bit broken/lost. Lesbian. She/Her. Depression/trauma/a bit mad. 🏳️‍🌈🌻
Post mainly about mental health, disability/accessibility/inclusion, ceramics and other craft projects, and dogs.🏺🎨🖍️🐩
Oh - hello!!! I'm so glad and so sorry I've been crap with invite codes - just realised I have one now I could have given you! 🙈
Very glad you're here. 😊
August 15, 2023 at 6:54 PM
I thought would be my career. I'm just so tired. I'm approaching the first anniversary of leaving my PhD and I still feel so broken. Thank you for seeing me. And for telling me leaving your PhD felt the same as leaving your abusive relationship. They felt so deeply the same for me. 💔 2/2
July 29, 2023 at 8:50 PM
I'm so glad to meet someone who gets it. The abusive relationship was a while ago, but it took years and years to have access to therapy that might help to heal those wounds. My PhD opened the abusive relationship wounds up in so many ways. It's the second time I've had to walk away from what 1/
July 29, 2023 at 8:47 PM
Yeah, it's a crappy disease. Can't believe we're just "living with it" now!
July 28, 2023 at 7:38 PM
After a few weeks of not being able to cope with any activity at all. Felt a bit better this week, but then overdid it and exhausted myself! 🤦🏻‍♀️

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July 28, 2023 at 5:08 PM
No, it doesn't help in the long-term. It helps in the short-term though, ugh! I'm quite good with getting enough sleep. Aided by mirtazapine, but I'll go to bed early. Part of the problem atm is that I had covid again and then had bad fatigue for a few weeks, so kind of figuring out my limits 1/
July 28, 2023 at 5:08 PM
I know lots of DBT skills, and I've had so much therapy, but I think the problem is, I did DBT and worked *so hard*, but it didn't stop me getting into an abusive relationship and it didn't stop me getting discriminated out of my PhD. I feel lost and powerless, and that's a hard place to be. 😐
July 28, 2023 at 4:45 PM
And I always forget, bc my mental health stuff is so load and present, but also #LGBT #lesbian #queer people and anyone posting about #dyslexia or #dyspraxia
July 28, 2023 at 11:08 AM