I offend people when I ask questions or need acts of reassurance, I'm boring because I'm averse to stimuli and need routine, I'm difficult because I have trust issues and experience paranoid breaks from reality. Wooden mannerisms and slow reaction time! No desirable traits, I guess.

What's one more empty coping mechanism for the void. I'm sorry, though. Here to talk if you want to.

Thanks. Feeling stupid lol. 🥂

Real question is, will I still be able to draw porn

it's so frustrating. It's so fucking frustrating. they either yell at me and call me names or want to marry me after a single conversation, but can't even remember what my name is

which, whatever, but EYE am not the one who started waxing poetic about dating and getting a cabin in the woods

now I gotta scrape him off. goddddd.

he doesn't seem willing to talk about my transness in any context that isn't sex lol, and I can tell now that he's waiting for me to hurry up and stop being sad about being repeatedly misgendered so he can get his rocks off

That's shitty, I'm so sorry. Anyone bandying about the term "clean" is an instant no for me.

Definitely not worth it, just bummed that I have to concede it's going to stay a scary, confusing monster.

Starting to think no theoretical good experience I *might* have could be worth this shit. 😕

I inevitably get ghosted when I mention I'm not ready to fuck on the first date and can I please have some time to work up to it--and he did *immediately* lose interest--but man that shit had me this 🤏 close

So, okay, you have basically the perfect shape

oh my god 🖤

I have made... purchases

Horny depression has me going insane