Like I feel so fat and nasty and why would anyone want to look at me

She made up for holding out on me

We were going to the renn Faire….. I’m like.. dude now I don’t want to go because I can’t dress up which is part of the fun

All I wanted to do was the Renn Faire, dress up with my friends and go!
But it got delayed (sucks but It worked out better bc I got a better outfit together)
And NOW I told people I didn’t want to do Dagger Heart AND the Renn Faire on the same day. What do people do? Schedule it on the day we KNEW

How how HOW are people getting so many shinies?? I’ve been using the methods online and ONLY ONE AFTWR 5 HOURS

Been dealing with real bad body dysmorphia and feeling overwhelmed by feelings of being the fat friend like I’ve always been

Side note- husband is awake and was already texting me this morning before his shift

Also just feeling very….dissatisfied with my body to the point of covering mirrors again

Girl… print em out and I will fold em like there is no tomorrow. I used to fold church pamphlets for my dad (so like…. Between 100-300) and I can fold them like a PRO

IM STILL OBSESSED BCKWJXKDKCK

I feel as if because I am fat I often get overlooked because my body and me as a whole is not viewed as “aesthetically pleasing” and nothing looks good on me.
I just feel so defeated and like I am meant to be mid my entire life

Truly feeling helpless about my leg pain, the fact that it’s so hard for me to lose weight in general. I just wish I could be built like everyone else and have a better hand in life.
Part of this is also realizing that I don’t think I’ll ever be viewed as talented as long as I am fat.