I wouldn't be happy here. Worst case scenario is being NEET here. before that I could try going to somewhere with student visa and eventually migrating.
Unfortunately I don't get white foreigner pass for every misbehaving here despite knowing just many social "rules" as tourist.

If I'm using the word "autism" as an excuse then japanese are using the word "trying hard" as excuse to blame their brutally inhumane way to treat people who are exactly like me
I am fit as perfect target to their shaming bullshit, I have gotten it enough and it's time to become happy.

People being hostile is universal, but in Japan these energy are directed to people with certain pattern of behavior, which they recognize but only consider it as fault of each person's personality. everything is their fault for not "trying hard" enough and they loves using this word

There's also ongoing copyright stuffs which I agree with western opinion, so "muh westerner" argument of me doesn't make sense.
also I did worship ZUN too much like stalin.
I mean ZUN himself said he doesn't want to be personally worshipped so I should be changing my mind.

sorry man that reply was me being overreacting, definitely did not have to be aggressive that much.
what you said is right looking back, but I think the reason for steam stuffs are because they don't run on windows 10 well, and he lost the source code for touhou 6 so can't fix it neither.

By "I'm Japanese" I mean I am clueless like most Japanese are, about western stuffs in general.

Is that like kind of humor I'm not aware of?
I'm simply being clueless here, I should've asked more nicely I think. I was trying to know why and how they do it because I wanted to understand the one part of fandom.

hakurei reimu*
But I agree, My first love

I was telling gaijins about japanese attitude to copyright and they're always surprised. barely knowing what "do not repost" means when they put it in their bio.
But when I tell that to japanese they either react, "gaijin has no moral" or "cultural difference, we still need to enforce laws"

This person quoted me because I referenced that they have 3DPD pfp(is that herself? why would you show your face in SNS other than facebook?)
Then blocked me when I insulted them with japanese language.
"8 years old" very retarded comment to make.
These people shouldn't be allowed on internet.

I don't even browse 4chan anymore, I hang around in "altchans"
they can talk about video game and anime without constantly referring to liberal tranny ZOG whatever.
I am past the phase of basing entire identity on imageboard persona.
4chan people has became insufferable and I prefer altchan.

I have some friends there and these are people who can detach themselves from political shit.
Simply using slurs as a way to gatekeep, also "Cunny" stuffs to gross normal people out.
they are insufferable when it comes to politics and I realized that's not just case for "leftists"

Like, Imagine having your entire identity based on this superficial political alignment.
The left seems to actually care about their belief, that can be annoying at time but I need to be fine with it.
I suppose I should fix my 4chan accent in this website.

I am not associating actual myself into Nazis when I larp as them in order to fit into right wing community.
I'm simply associating it with my internet persona in those sphere I guess.
I'm not english native speaker The way of writing I've learned there would make people uncomfortable.

Dissociation?

Yeah man, I don't like following these kind of incomprehensible morality.
Just because other people do, I was never indoctrinated to even care so I just pirate things like westerner do.
It's equally hard to get actual copies of rare game here I think.

I would really appreciate if you can do that. I really love touhou and I prioritize it far more than political orientation of the (right wing ) communities I'm from.

I believe the correct interpretation that made touhou exist for 25 years is putting official canon aside and making your own gensokyo where anything can exist
Making it into canon is not correct thing to do, Having different interpretation is nice when they also allow other interpretation to exist

I see like, them just kissing with background being lesbian pride flag. I don't mind them existing but I wish they would stop caring about politics.
Japanese yuri works are expressed in various ways rather than "Lesbian pride flag" "ZUN made them to be lesbian".