ok this might be why i failed at social media because i apparently had that set so no one could message me😅 try it again, see if it works now!

ah i did delete it! i was getting a bunch of spam calls that were driving me nuts

anyway, not necessarily a pity post, but a random train of thought

even now, i don’t think anyone comes back to look at work i’ve done, commercial or not, and i kind of just post to the void. it just hit me as i was looking at everyone’s art being shared, “wow i don’t think i ever made anyone feel like this” and i just wonder when i lost that or if i ever had it

i also find that you don’t really get hired for the projects that suit your style, so in reality it’s just better to show you can do a range of things early on. tbh, i’m not sure any of my takes on things ever stood out, and i probably wasn’t really suited for commercial work!

i think when you’re starting out, you often get the advice to draw what you love, but that only really works if you’re keeping it as a hobby. you’re not going to be your only client, so at some point you have to branch out and do things you’re less excited about.

ok i like it so far! the kids are cute and the story’s really interesting! i think it’s being subbed as a weekly batch which kinda helps with the pacing instead of watching it daily

i was new to the asadora format and i like it! at first i was like “120 episodes, oof” but they go by so quickly so it’s not too intimidating! (plus it had masaki okada so i had to😍)

i’m downloading anpan now so i’ll let you know how it goes!

i really enjoyed this one! sairi ito’s so good in this. i want to start watching Anpan

i wish i had talent to offer to apply at @remedygames.com, they’re clearly a team with a lot of love for not only the work that they craft but for the audience they’re crafting for. i’m glad this found me at the right time when i needed it.

anyway, i just felt like wandering around and shooting enemies to try and release some stress but for some reason by the credit roll i was crying lol. in a strange way, it felt like finally being heard. (also i think the songs got me, so good job on that one)

my day job is like that, it’s draining and demanding and they certainly don’t give a shit about how hard the art process actually is. the burnout’s taken a toll on me both mentally and physically and it’s a lot like living in a fog

this is silly, but there’s something about a haunted house of monstrosities of mangled ideas and the exploitation of artists and creatives by these two scientists who couldn’t give a shit about the artisic process that as a failed artist, it BROKE me

lol same, i just watched it on my lunch break because i couldn’t wait til i got home