the best part is that you can be super succeptible to it too, through no control of your own. oh yeah, the sex elves in the woods? yeah, no yeah youre just uniquely compatible with them. it takes like, virtually no effort for one to knock you up. yeah youre just like that pal i dont make the rules.

yeah!! love not being able to think

(something i have been told a few times in the past)

that's one of the reasons I really want something going on locally cause I'm harder to ignore if we're in the same room (yet it happens if we look at most locals were my friend can't go)

I'm also scared of reaching out and ask cause what if it's just all in my head and it makes things awkward

December is gonna be even worse

probably but social anxiety is a bitch

worst/best case scenario i know there's an audience for hypnosis kink stuff and im super easy so

anyway im rambling but those are def things i am thinking about

there's gotta be a market for fat girl who lost weight and also have the smallest gock out there right? (maybe by that point i'll have access to surgery cause my doc still doesn't want me to get my pussy until i lose enough weight)

if i can't find a job i might as well make myself hot enough to find a partner locally and/or start an onlyfans so that i don't end up with nothing once my countdown is over (the countdown being when my mom passes since she's definitivelly starting to get older)

like i struggle to go take walks outside cause I don't wanna be perceived by stangers but if I make it routine people will just go "this lady's doing her walk every morning" instead of being judged unknowingly