Lucca Pucca
@theluccapucca.bsky.social
Artist, Designer 🖌️, 420 🌿, a Phoenix like soul, neurodivergent, Non-Binary (any), spiritual, Loves games, Soulsborne obsessed 🌙 Praise the Sun ☀️
I don't necessarily understand the behavior atm. I usually try to figure it out, but this I didn't get. You tortured yourself snoozing people month to month for a whole year so far and only now you decide to say you can make your own opinions and see the news yourself? Okay cool. Just remove me wtf.
October 26, 2025 at 5:04 PM
I don't necessarily understand the behavior atm. I usually try to figure it out, but this I didn't get. You tortured yourself snoozing people month to month for a whole year so far and only now you decide to say you can make your own opinions and see the news yourself? Okay cool. Just remove me wtf.
I just removed myself out of respect for her. Seriously I'm not sure why she didn't just do it herself. What possibly would keep you wanting to stay with me then when that's all I pretty much talk about besides memes and art (FB).
October 26, 2025 at 5:04 PM
I just removed myself out of respect for her. Seriously I'm not sure why she didn't just do it herself. What possibly would keep you wanting to stay with me then when that's all I pretty much talk about besides memes and art (FB).
For me feeling like I am orphaned has helped. I am used to being abandoned and people not caring (that explains my rage & sadness). I just tell myself I have me, myself, and I + my partner.
September 16, 2025 at 4:00 PM
For me feeling like I am orphaned has helped. I am used to being abandoned and people not caring (that explains my rage & sadness). I just tell myself I have me, myself, and I + my partner.
Nah I am not seeking him out, but I dunno, perhaps I just want him to know I exist and that I haven't ever tried to find him because everyone kept me from it. Maybe you weren't a good person, but I can see you and my mother in me and all the good things that make me, me. I am not like my mum at all.
September 16, 2025 at 4:00 PM
Nah I am not seeking him out, but I dunno, perhaps I just want him to know I exist and that I haven't ever tried to find him because everyone kept me from it. Maybe you weren't a good person, but I can see you and my mother in me and all the good things that make me, me. I am not like my mum at all.
I can't get people to understand my choice because they see what they want to or what they feel is right. Anyone who chooses to be free chooses to not be tied down by the strings that come along with it.
It's my life to live. Not yours.
It's my life to live. Not yours.
September 11, 2025 at 11:59 PM
I can't get people to understand my choice because they see what they want to or what they feel is right. Anyone who chooses to be free chooses to not be tied down by the strings that come along with it.
It's my life to live. Not yours.
It's my life to live. Not yours.
So when someone thinks they are going to manipulate me, they won't, even if its not meant to be. I learned a long time ago to be quiet and not give fuel. I learned to not over share though I still do sometimes. Like Gen Alpha my ass asks why I am being asked to do something if I can't read the room.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
So when someone thinks they are going to manipulate me, they won't, even if its not meant to be. I learned a long time ago to be quiet and not give fuel. I learned to not over share though I still do sometimes. Like Gen Alpha my ass asks why I am being asked to do something if I can't read the room.
I didn't know what gaslighting was or the term. But I was fully aware of how to counter it considering it was done to me regularly. I started to pay attention to what I did or say. I paid attention to great detail to everything around me. I kept receipts. I started to record how I was spoken to.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
I didn't know what gaslighting was or the term. But I was fully aware of how to counter it considering it was done to me regularly. I started to pay attention to what I did or say. I paid attention to great detail to everything around me. I kept receipts. I started to record how I was spoken to.
From a young age I learned (as I grew up mostly on my own devices) I realized my mom would use words I didn't say to manipulate me and tell me oh yes you did, expecting me not to remember. I did. This happened more and more. I would fight and argue over it too because I knew she was lying.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
From a young age I learned (as I grew up mostly on my own devices) I realized my mom would use words I didn't say to manipulate me and tell me oh yes you did, expecting me not to remember. I did. This happened more and more. I would fight and argue over it too because I knew she was lying.
So I got annoyed at "light gaslighting" with the expectation that my partner would relay the info.
I should note that out of the two of us neurodivergents I am the one with the memory no one I know has. I pretend to not know things on purpose. Its an act, but I do it to protect myself.
I should note that out of the two of us neurodivergents I am the one with the memory no one I know has. I pretend to not know things on purpose. Its an act, but I do it to protect myself.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
So I got annoyed at "light gaslighting" with the expectation that my partner would relay the info.
I should note that out of the two of us neurodivergents I am the one with the memory no one I know has. I pretend to not know things on purpose. Its an act, but I do it to protect myself.
I should note that out of the two of us neurodivergents I am the one with the memory no one I know has. I pretend to not know things on purpose. Its an act, but I do it to protect myself.
To be fair I am also not bogged down by the normalcies of the system or life. I was given freedom. She then got upset for the communications she thought I was getting, I was not because Marv is not a messenger. 🤷 My partner got them all and no he didn't tell me sorry. Marv was also at work. 🙄
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
To be fair I am also not bogged down by the normalcies of the system or life. I was given freedom. She then got upset for the communications she thought I was getting, I was not because Marv is not a messenger. 🤷 My partner got them all and no he didn't tell me sorry. Marv was also at work. 🙄
I kind of just stood there taking her complaints but ignoring them because I understood they were frustrations but as an empath I was not accepting the energy or vibes and I can't relate to her in that matter because if it was my friend I would be there all day practically and also communicate.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
I kind of just stood there taking her complaints but ignoring them because I understood they were frustrations but as an empath I was not accepting the energy or vibes and I can't relate to her in that matter because if it was my friend I would be there all day practically and also communicate.
She commented how she was stuck having to help her roommate and was complaining she had to spend time with her at the hospital when she has things to do. I literally told her that is fine, just communicate and let her know she will understand. Then continued to complain about it.
September 7, 2025 at 5:04 PM
She commented how she was stuck having to help her roommate and was complaining she had to spend time with her at the hospital when she has things to do. I literally told her that is fine, just communicate and let her know she will understand. Then continued to complain about it.
I think we live in an age of chaos. It feels like it too.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I think we live in an age of chaos. It feels like it too.
*sighs* I just want some peace. I want no death not even of a weed. I am sick of hearing such negative dark shit all the time. Just let me go back to the creator already and restart because this is a shit show of humanity and I feel like everyone's darkness is taking over.
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August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
*sighs* I just want some peace. I want no death not even of a weed. I am sick of hearing such negative dark shit all the time. Just let me go back to the creator already and restart because this is a shit show of humanity and I feel like everyone's darkness is taking over.
OH hell no. Loser can't get enough of me and his life is such shit he needs me to make it better again. No. Also my ex needs to stop pretending that coming around doesn't have anything to do with me because we all know that's a lie. I am part of Marv's life. You can't be there w/out me there too.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
OH hell no. Loser can't get enough of me and his life is such shit he needs me to make it better again. No. Also my ex needs to stop pretending that coming around doesn't have anything to do with me because we all know that's a lie. I am part of Marv's life. You can't be there w/out me there too.
As an ambivert, I really need recharge time because as an empath spiritually some people drain the f out of me. And recently my toxic sa'er ex went snooping on my partners pages trying to get close to me again and followed his insta.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
As an ambivert, I really need recharge time because as an empath spiritually some people drain the f out of me. And recently my toxic sa'er ex went snooping on my partners pages trying to get close to me again and followed his insta.
I know her wanting me to do things is a projection of herself wants. She's trying to get people to do things with her for whatever reason (she has friends knows all the nbrs and is deep in knowing many in the comm). Some of it is her own personal choice as it would be mine if I was lonely.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I know her wanting me to do things is a projection of herself wants. She's trying to get people to do things with her for whatever reason (she has friends knows all the nbrs and is deep in knowing many in the comm). Some of it is her own personal choice as it would be mine if I was lonely.
I recently made a giant friend group of people that all game together a bunch of different stuff. Lots of them are family that game together. They let Marv and I in so we been with them a lot for the past few months. I am not all that lonely anymore.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I recently made a giant friend group of people that all game together a bunch of different stuff. Lots of them are family that game together. They let Marv and I in so we been with them a lot for the past few months. I am not all that lonely anymore.
If I want to watch something Dark I will watch a horror movie bcause at least its not mimicking real life with war and shit.There is more to this too. Her thinking I am lonely yet I am gaming with friends online a lot. I will have my headset on talking to someone, and she thinks I am talking to her.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
If I want to watch something Dark I will watch a horror movie bcause at least its not mimicking real life with war and shit.There is more to this too. Her thinking I am lonely yet I am gaming with friends online a lot. I will have my headset on talking to someone, and she thinks I am talking to her.
I'm here to complain but no, I do not want to watch these kind of awful story movies and shows you are watching (lots of death people doing bad things wild west etc). I want to watch K pop Demon Hunters. I want to watch light hearted happy shit. I watch romantic comedies.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I'm here to complain but no, I do not want to watch these kind of awful story movies and shows you are watching (lots of death people doing bad things wild west etc). I want to watch K pop Demon Hunters. I want to watch light hearted happy shit. I watch romantic comedies.
When I grew up I was forced to do things because they were considered proper to do so (if you live in this house you need to come talk and be present sort of thing). But this was with family. Roommate is not my family and I do not owe anyone outside of my family my time and energy.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
When I grew up I was forced to do things because they were considered proper to do so (if you live in this house you need to come talk and be present sort of thing). But this was with family. Roommate is not my family and I do not owe anyone outside of my family my time and energy.
From what I noticed Rmmate gets hella upset when I don't want to spend time w/ her too and I want to do something else with my time (she's in her 60s and just wants to watch tv). She also thinks I am lonely. I am often having to remind myself I am not obligated to spend time with someone.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
From what I noticed Rmmate gets hella upset when I don't want to spend time w/ her too and I want to do something else with my time (she's in her 60s and just wants to watch tv). She also thinks I am lonely. I am often having to remind myself I am not obligated to spend time with someone.
I am annoyed I am not respected in my boundaries. People wonder why I get defensive when I say no and it gets brought up again or something is a little different about it now that makes it a yes now. No I said no. You push that's why. NO.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I am annoyed I am not respected in my boundaries. People wonder why I get defensive when I say no and it gets brought up again or something is a little different about it now that makes it a yes now. No I said no. You push that's why. NO.
I don't want to be responsible for something bad happens or if her car hits something or someone else does (its almost happened already) because she doesn't have insurance for those things honestly. I am not willing to f with that shit, I do not trust anything about the entire thing, so no.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
I don't want to be responsible for something bad happens or if her car hits something or someone else does (its almost happened already) because she doesn't have insurance for those things honestly. I am not willing to f with that shit, I do not trust anything about the entire thing, so no.
She kept pushing me to do the market alone after her surgery by myself with her products, her car, holding on to her money, etc. I told her I was not comfortable with that and repeat the same thing every time she asks to reaffirm this boundary that I do not want to do this.
August 23, 2025 at 4:16 PM
She kept pushing me to do the market alone after her surgery by myself with her products, her car, holding on to her money, etc. I told her I was not comfortable with that and repeat the same thing every time she asks to reaffirm this boundary that I do not want to do this.