while i am so grateful to have moved (like, incredebley so!) i think it came as a shock to my body & mental

the change was so huge that I think im having a hard time readjusting all the things id got 'comfortable' with; the good and bad
and being so ill & in pain makes it hard to be nice to myself

this means the Vanilla Creatives server and my art pursuits are on the line- which makes me very sad

Im thinking about giving managment to VC to someone else and for myself, trying to fix my relationship with art and my anxiety with it

its chronic, everyday pains and drowsiness that i cant combat some days- and makes me feel like its 'my fault' and that im 'too lazy'

I know i need some help, and im getting it soon but its just been rough..

also sorry!! not trying to doompost lolol just wanted to be honest and upfront 😭

ohhh prettyy! works for me hehe
puppy dawg :D 🤍

pfff omg !! ty this totally counts lmaooo x')

I had to visualise this IMMEDIATLY its so good 😭

eeeee!!! 💗💗💗
so decadent !! so elegant !! I LOVE love ballgowns, they look so cuuute! 🥺🤍

yowch!!