Life going well?
No LewdRP desires, basic porn.
Life going shit?
Want to straight-up sext people, start looking at weird kinks in porn.

Stay away from porn, when life goes to shit.

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Last thing before I go:
I am no-longer bound to not say names or protect anyone who cut me out, since I'm not stuck keeping a reputation.
Keep my fucking name out your mouth, or I start outing what you & I did behind closed-doors, & what you were okay with me doing.

Peace, fuckers.

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I've gone off-topic;
The point is, I've drawn my lines, re-established myself as a person, & am making a whole new life far from all this.
I've comepletely given-up LewdRP, too.

I'm not here to grovel, to be let back in.
I'm staying gone.
Only thing I'm keeping is my OCs, & that's it.
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environment, & you've got an entirely different person.

The radical shift in people's behavior with/to me, after I left, was crazy. I can't even tell who is & isn't a "real friend" anymore, because holy shit, I don't know how real friendship is when the masks follow out of RP.
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You're all just fucking terrible.

Everyone is so ready to backstab & abandon, everyone's got the moral highground, everyone's tone about what to do with bad people changes when it's them on the chopping-block, & the fucking manipulation is insane.

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from Twit, ya see.
I got message after message, after the deletion of my shit.
The hate-mail I could deal with, but the "Gotta slander you, but I don't mean it!", the "I only did Taboo to get closer to you.", & the other shit that came-out afterwards really drove-home something to me:
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And eventually, it happened:
Me deep in meat-beat mindset, saying whatever someone wanted me to say, just to get my rocks off.
Do I regret it? Abso-fucking-lutely.

What I regret a whole lot more, is what both sides of the coin did with/to me after the fact.

I didn't just lose all my friends
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If you're here to ask who was into what, Imma say that everyone still around me after I made the Judy was either into Taboo, cool with it, or didn't care.
Sort that out yourselves.

From all kinds of Taboo, 🍼, 🐾, ♠️, to Non-Con, everyone wanted ya boy to experiment with.
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to join them, even if I wasn't interested in it, myself.

However, I struggle with a masturbation addiction, & having someone else involved during my meat-beat sessions is a high I've chased for a long time, now.

You can see where & why shit would start getting bad, right?
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Let's state the obvious:
What the fuck was I doing?

Well, lotta people suddenly came forward to about being into some WEIRD shit in RP, none of it IRL, of course.
The thing is, I'm a people-pleaser, so when 30 mutuals all wanted to dip their toes into the pool of TabooRP, I was more than happy +