sory for the sudden hiatus LOL, i probably needed it, good news is i'm starting to draw again (?) after a real bad relapse, so maybe some gay sillies are to come in the future!!

it's probably gonna be a bit before i'm comfortable interacting with people on social media much again given various circumstances, but good things are happening.. just tryin to take it easy for now

other good news as well!! "modify" got re-monetized!!!!! this apparently happened months ago but youtube just, never really notified me and i didn't keep close tabs on it because i didn't expect it to get resolved without me pushing a bit more on the issue.. but that's a BIG relief!

sory for the lack of art in general lately, i've been very very busy with my main work since i'm kind of in a rush to Not remain below the poverty line income-wise following the demonetization of my only monetized video.. (there are ads on other videos but i'm not the one making munny off of them)

genuine request: if you don't like that kind of thing do not follow that account or be mean to me about it in general.... theres a reason im separating it.. im gonna do my best to make my depictions of it more Cute than anything else, not to censor myself or anything, dats just my style!!

gamemaker studio 2!

this is soooooooooooo awesome....... there's not enough "characters being wrapped up by a big long tongue" in tha world!!!!

if you're worried about how things might turn out, it could be a good idea to schedule shorter, more frequent check-ups with your prescriber.. that's what me and my prescriber do when we're unsure of how a med might turn out, or i can just make contact to try and get a quick appointment scheduled

it seems that's a common fear for a lot of medications but i think a lot of medications are worth at least trying if your doctor(s) recommend it to you and you could potentially benefit from it.... their effects aren't permanent after all!!

it seems like with anti-psychotics in general, from others' experience as well, its a Choice you have to make, and for my very specific situation where my modern psychotic symptoms aren't bad besides scary auditory hallucinations, i could probably learn to live with that if it means i can draw again

i'd say my case is very different LOL.. i'd been struggling with my imagination in general for about 2.5 years now (ever since i got put on abilify), when otherwise my imagination feels extremely powerful where inspiration came very naturally and from anywhere..

yea that sounds about right...... thankfully my psychotic symptoms these days arent too severe but hallucinations do happen (mostly auditory) that scare the shit out of me, especially at night.. but maybe i can learn to just Deal with that if it means i can seriously draw again

i worry that my anti-psychotic killed my imagination a lot, i felt that a bit earlier this week when i was off my meds for the weekend but right before i got back on my meds again i was flooded with all sorts of inspiration.. would be really unfortunate if that's truly the case

i feel crazy because this project is gonna require me to make like 19 character models total just for the first set of "stages", though at least the models + designs are pretty simple LOL.. im learning lots about making fancy cartoony rigs that are exportable into unity..

the gameplay itself is heavily inspired by parappa given i'm using my briefly-lived parappa fangame as a base LOL, plus i just loooove parappa and um jammer lammy in general.. here's a prototype screenshot thats yet to be updated from its extremely "parappa" origins