In some ways it’s cool being reminded of my influence from my Alpha Daddy era lol

Yeah I remember seeing that and going “oh!”

Whatever. It’ll never be the same as the OG haha

Meh, I kinda lost my oomph with this one but no one reads these anyway so it’s fine. I’m just tired of waiting for something that might not even happen and I’m even more tired of being invalidated for being upset by it.

“Don’t give up!” is what you say to someone working.

I’m done working.

I don’t “deserve” love or I’d already have it. And if love was somehow owed to me then what kind of love would that really be anyway?

Love is a gift, freely given, undeserved. Which may actually be impossible in a pure sense, but reaching for an impossible gives the meaning to it anyhow.

I don’t believe anyone deserves love. I don’t believe in “deserve” at all. The world doesn’t work like that, it’s not a hypothetical, moral, and just utopia that honors “deserving.”

“Hard work” only rewards those that produce something with utility.

(Also, as a side note, it is ALWAYS the non-single people that try and dismiss and brush off the “glamour” of being in a relationship. If you miss being single so bad, DO IT. BE SINGLE. 🙄)

*I am specifically talking about romantic love. YES THERE ARE OTHER KINDS OF LOVE, AND THEY CAN BE COMPLETELY FULFILLING AND SUSTAINABLE I absolutely wish platonic love held more value, but I am also a single person that yearns for romantic love and I am allowed to be upset that I don’t have it.

If it’s true that love* is deserved, and I don’t have it, then I guess I don’t really deserve it. I must not be good enough or attractive enough or outgoing enough or funny enough or whatever enough to get it, by that logic.

And that’s BS. Bc I refuse to believe that who I am now hasn’t “earned” it

“Deserve” has too much attachment to “merit” and “hard work.”

Unless you subscribe to the ableist system of meritocracy, it doesn’t bode well to believe that your efforts will be rewarded in the context of “deserving” love (or anything really, but that’s outside the scope of this skroll for now)

And sure, I’m “still young,” there’s “still time,” etc etc.

I’m still bitter.

Because I keep being told I “deserve” love.

I’ll be honest. I can get pretty bitter over the fact that I’ve “just put [myself] out there” for years all while “least expecting” to “find the one” that can only “love me after I first loved myself” and have never come close to anything long-lasting or meaningful.

Soon

These are in my presentation today :)

Hellooooo

We’ve all been there

How are you