The first pair I remade 5? Times I think?? And they’re still different sizes… not sure I’ll have the strength to remake the most recent one after already weaving in the ends… how am I supposed to live with this shame???

And that walking, even if it isn’t actively causing me pain, feels bad and like the world is full of danger. And it’s difficult to deal with because with my anxiety I know it’s irrational but like my body IS unstable. That’s just a fact. Walking IS bad for me. And now I know about it… aaahahhah

I think the worst thing was finding out about how badly it’s been affecting my nervous system? Because I’ve always just assumed that the reason I never wanna leave my house/ get back as quickly as possible was the depression but now I’m fully aware of the fact that my body does not feel stable +

Lmao I never check twitch so I didn’t even see your message until yesterday