Why do i bother. I actually try and nobody wants to communicate with me. Why are my two closest friends besties but i dont feel like im besties wirh them

Left my friend server and im so worried for you but of course never tell me things knowing it makes me nervous

Dont even fucking get me started on them being a LOUD hater about a media me and my friends were consuming to the point it made one of my friends stop talking about it because he felt upset. And they had the audacity to say i don't think about their feelings

I have brought up how i feel like everything i do makes them upset and like. Yeah. That's true. I cant say anything unless it's close to something they already like

So, so much was shut down regarding tftgs. I knew this series since BEFORE i knew them, and they felt so threatened by it because there was a character in it that was like their character. The character is just the blond guy who's chill 😭 a common character type

I once rambled about txm and they got scared and asked my other friend if i liked the person who made txm more than them ?? I wasnt even in CONTACT with the artist then ????? And that scared me out of talking about that

"I associate parable news with you being stressed and sad 🥺🥺🥺" it was my coping media ?? It STOPPED me from being as stressed?? It possibly saved me from getting WORSE?

THANK YOUUU GRRR

I'm not saying it's bad to only be receptive if your ocs are interacting with mine in some way. I'm saying it's upsetting when they treat their ocs like the main character of my story.

I trusted their views on the original media too much. I trusted that they would care about my story as much as i did. I thought my story could have any closure. Im tired of people only caring about the things i do if they can insert their characters into it

THANKU BESTIE THANK U

People are jealous of me, and i feel bad not doing anything about it but ??? What AM I supposed to do ?

I feel really, really bad about my following sometimes, and i contemplate deleting everything once a friend says how upset they are that they don't get much attention.