Tez (reading Tilly Lawless's NOTHING BUT MY BODY)
@tezmilleroz.bsky.social
Cis. She. MDD, ASD, ADD, AIH. Melbourne/Naarm/Narrm. Fiction reader, BlackMilk Galaxy collector, SW client. TezMillerOz on various platforms: WordPress, X, Facebook, Instagram, Threads, etc. Book notes on Goodreads, and sometimes Amazon UK.
Key quotes from this post by @pawsandpetra.bsky.social : sinandsunflowers.substack.com/p/existence:
"You have moments where you do feel sorry for yourself, when all you need is a hug to bring you back to your body - and it can't be found."
"You might be interested to hear that
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"You have moments where you do feel sorry for yourself, when all you need is a hug to bring you back to your body - and it can't be found."
"You might be interested to hear that
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November 28, 2025 at 1:03 PM
Key quotes from this post by @pawsandpetra.bsky.social : sinandsunflowers.substack.com/p/existence:
"You have moments where you do feel sorry for yourself, when all you need is a hug to bring you back to your body - and it can't be found."
"You might be interested to hear that
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"You have moments where you do feel sorry for yourself, when all you need is a hug to bring you back to your body - and it can't be found."
"You might be interested to hear that
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"The whole team at ___ have missed you."
I don't doubt that. I'm grateful for how they helped me & made me feel valued as a client - as a person. But I can't see myself ever returning to ye olde massage parlour.
I expanded my horizons, met more people, and I'm doing well now. I
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I don't doubt that. I'm grateful for how they helped me & made me feel valued as a client - as a person. But I can't see myself ever returning to ye olde massage parlour.
I expanded my horizons, met more people, and I'm doing well now. I
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November 28, 2025 at 9:45 AM
"The whole team at ___ have missed you."
I don't doubt that. I'm grateful for how they helped me & made me feel valued as a client - as a person. But I can't see myself ever returning to ye olde massage parlour.
I expanded my horizons, met more people, and I'm doing well now. I
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I don't doubt that. I'm grateful for how they helped me & made me feel valued as a client - as a person. But I can't see myself ever returning to ye olde massage parlour.
I expanded my horizons, met more people, and I'm doing well now. I
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"Australia's highest paid esc*rt."
Not gonna lie, I'm kind of disappointed that a podcast I follow here on Instagram has announced their next guest via Patreon this way.
Maybe because I've already reseached the person, and her method is to aim for a high-paying clientele - thus
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Not gonna lie, I'm kind of disappointed that a podcast I follow here on Instagram has announced their next guest via Patreon this way.
Maybe because I've already reseached the person, and her method is to aim for a high-paying clientele - thus
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November 28, 2025 at 9:39 AM
"Australia's highest paid esc*rt."
Not gonna lie, I'm kind of disappointed that a podcast I follow here on Instagram has announced their next guest via Patreon this way.
Maybe because I've already reseached the person, and her method is to aim for a high-paying clientele - thus
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Not gonna lie, I'm kind of disappointed that a podcast I follow here on Instagram has announced their next guest via Patreon this way.
Maybe because I've already reseached the person, and her method is to aim for a high-paying clientele - thus
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"I was sobbing in the armchair in the girls' room because not getting picked in the intros reinforced my rejection: she didn't want me and now neither did these razzo guys."
--Tilly Lawless, Nothing But My Body
I only did a walk-in with intros once, but I knew I'd never do it
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I only did a walk-in with intros once, but I knew I'd never do it
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November 28, 2025 at 9:30 AM
"I was sobbing in the armchair in the girls' room because not getting picked in the intros reinforced my rejection: she didn't want me and now neither did these razzo guys."
--Tilly Lawless, Nothing But My Body
I only did a walk-in with intros once, but I knew I'd never do it
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--Tilly Lawless, Nothing But My Body
I only did a walk-in with intros once, but I knew I'd never do it
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"I never know where to put my tongue."
Accidentally sus-sounding thing I said at the dentist.
(Got away with just a clean this year. Well done, teeth!)
Accidentally sus-sounding thing I said at the dentist.
(Got away with just a clean this year. Well done, teeth!)
November 27, 2025 at 10:49 AM
"I never know where to put my tongue."
Accidentally sus-sounding thing I said at the dentist.
(Got away with just a clean this year. Well done, teeth!)
Accidentally sus-sounding thing I said at the dentist.
(Got away with just a clean this year. Well done, teeth!)
Saw a meme about how next year is going to be their "insane year."
Mate, that was this year for me, with my antidepressant not working efficiently for most of it.
I'd like 2026 to very much be a sane year for me. A safe, sane, and consensual year.
Mate, that was this year for me, with my antidepressant not working efficiently for most of it.
I'd like 2026 to very much be a sane year for me. A safe, sane, and consensual year.
November 24, 2025 at 12:12 PM
Saw a meme about how next year is going to be their "insane year."
Mate, that was this year for me, with my antidepressant not working efficiently for most of it.
I'd like 2026 to very much be a sane year for me. A safe, sane, and consensual year.
Mate, that was this year for me, with my antidepressant not working efficiently for most of it.
I'd like 2026 to very much be a sane year for me. A safe, sane, and consensual year.
"What's your favourite song?"
Normally I don't answer questions from "Team NGL."
But lately I've had two songs in my head:
"Fly Me Away" by Goldfrapp
"Strange" by Tori Amos
Look them up on your favourite music streaming service.
Normally I don't answer questions from "Team NGL."
But lately I've had two songs in my head:
"Fly Me Away" by Goldfrapp
"Strange" by Tori Amos
Look them up on your favourite music streaming service.
November 24, 2025 at 12:04 PM
"What's your favourite song?"
Normally I don't answer questions from "Team NGL."
But lately I've had two songs in my head:
"Fly Me Away" by Goldfrapp
"Strange" by Tori Amos
Look them up on your favourite music streaming service.
Normally I don't answer questions from "Team NGL."
But lately I've had two songs in my head:
"Fly Me Away" by Goldfrapp
"Strange" by Tori Amos
Look them up on your favourite music streaming service.
"people with ADHD are [...] about 50% more likely to develop a drug or alcohol use disorder compared with people without ADHD."
Article goes on to mention that generally speaking boys go for MJ & girls go for booze.
I already knew as a teen I'd be high-risk due to mental illness
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Article goes on to mention that generally speaking boys go for MJ & girls go for booze.
I already knew as a teen I'd be high-risk due to mental illness
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!["people with ADHD are [...] about 50% more likely to develop a drug or alcohol use disorder compared with people without ADHD."
Article goes on to mention that generally speaking boys go for MJ & girls go for booze.
I already knew as a teen I'd be high-risk due to mental illness & an alcoholic parent. (Wasn't diagnosed with ADD until 31.)
This confirms that I did well to stay away from drink. Can't get addicted to what you've never had, theoretically.](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:xf6qljili3m7n4ykcc6qknnq/bafkreib6vc4ooz6pgnxmt7qtuv5hiueau7zefajswp3qik7ki5we3bgpzy@jpeg)
November 23, 2025 at 12:13 AM
"people with ADHD are [...] about 50% more likely to develop a drug or alcohol use disorder compared with people without ADHD."
Article goes on to mention that generally speaking boys go for MJ & girls go for booze.
I already knew as a teen I'd be high-risk due to mental illness
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Article goes on to mention that generally speaking boys go for MJ & girls go for booze.
I already knew as a teen I'd be high-risk due to mental illness
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Even if I was a person who'd go out at night to events...
Dress codes like "no effort = no entry" would mean I wouldn't be able to attend.
Dress codes like "no effort = no entry" would mean I wouldn't be able to attend.
November 23, 2025 at 12:03 AM
Even if I was a person who'd go out at night to events...
Dress codes like "no effort = no entry" would mean I wouldn't be able to attend.
Dress codes like "no effort = no entry" would mean I wouldn't be able to attend.
Noticed someone new (to me) listed on Realb*bes. Clicked her Twitter link...and saw a lot of ReTweeted anti-immigration posts made by people in the UK. And I didn't even have to scroll down to see them hidden in the depths of her account - they were literally the first Tweets I saw
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November 22, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Noticed someone new (to me) listed on Realb*bes. Clicked her Twitter link...and saw a lot of ReTweeted anti-immigration posts made by people in the UK. And I didn't even have to scroll down to see them hidden in the depths of her account - they were literally the first Tweets I saw
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I suppose if I were to go proper sub, the Dom would have to be very explicit about every single detail beforehand if they disallow in-scene negotiation.
Because generally being asked "what are your boundaries" would lead me to answering "I don't know." I don't do well coming up
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Because generally being asked "what are your boundaries" would lead me to answering "I don't know." I don't do well coming up
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November 21, 2025 at 10:01 AM
I suppose if I were to go proper sub, the Dom would have to be very explicit about every single detail beforehand if they disallow in-scene negotiation.
Because generally being asked "what are your boundaries" would lead me to answering "I don't know." I don't do well coming up
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Because generally being asked "what are your boundaries" would lead me to answering "I don't know." I don't do well coming up
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"No awkward chats."
So obvious that they've never met me, for I have the ability to make anything awkward... Do not doubt my power!
So obvious that they've never met me, for I have the ability to make anything awkward... Do not doubt my power!
November 20, 2025 at 12:41 PM
"No awkward chats."
So obvious that they've never met me, for I have the ability to make anything awkward... Do not doubt my power!
So obvious that they've never met me, for I have the ability to make anything awkward... Do not doubt my power!
What perfect album came out the year you turned 16?
November 18, 2025 at 10:05 AM
What perfect album came out the year you turned 16?
When I put on a button shirt this morning, I completely forgot about my history of buttons opening by themselves in public because I still haven't bough a minimiser bra. Didn't remember/notice/realise until in the shopping centre - on the way home, so I at least made it through one
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November 17, 2025 at 9:52 AM
When I put on a button shirt this morning, I completely forgot about my history of buttons opening by themselves in public because I still haven't bough a minimiser bra. Didn't remember/notice/realise until in the shopping centre - on the way home, so I at least made it through one
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Like, I know things contextually. But I need to read & hear them, too, for my brain to really comprehend & remember; to have in my memory banks as fuel to sustain me.
November 17, 2025 at 9:47 AM
Like, I know things contextually. But I need to read & hear them, too, for my brain to really comprehend & remember; to have in my memory banks as fuel to sustain me.
"Are you able to blow bubbles with gum?"
I *hate* gum. Hate the smell of it, the look of it, the texture of it. It's a sensory nightmare.
I accidentally stepped in gum on the bus a couple of years ago. I was so distressed that I - a fully grown adult - tearfully asked my mother
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I *hate* gum. Hate the smell of it, the look of it, the texture of it. It's a sensory nightmare.
I accidentally stepped in gum on the bus a couple of years ago. I was so distressed that I - a fully grown adult - tearfully asked my mother
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November 14, 2025 at 10:16 AM
"Are you able to blow bubbles with gum?"
I *hate* gum. Hate the smell of it, the look of it, the texture of it. It's a sensory nightmare.
I accidentally stepped in gum on the bus a couple of years ago. I was so distressed that I - a fully grown adult - tearfully asked my mother
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I *hate* gum. Hate the smell of it, the look of it, the texture of it. It's a sensory nightmare.
I accidentally stepped in gum on the bus a couple of years ago. I was so distressed that I - a fully grown adult - tearfully asked my mother
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November 12, 2025 at 8:39 PM
Jealous of Northern Hemisphereans getting to see the Aurora, but I'm loving their photos of it.
November 12, 2025 at 11:54 AM
Jealous of Northern Hemisphereans getting to see the Aurora, but I'm loving their photos of it.
"Pay a fee to interact" = not approachable, because not relatable.
The wishlists & "spoil me" = not relatable.
T&A pics = not relatable.
Collabs = not approachable, because seemingly more interested in hanging out with fellow pros than civs. (Even though would be paid more for
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The wishlists & "spoil me" = not relatable.
T&A pics = not relatable.
Collabs = not approachable, because seemingly more interested in hanging out with fellow pros than civs. (Even though would be paid more for
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November 11, 2025 at 11:15 AM
"Pay a fee to interact" = not approachable, because not relatable.
The wishlists & "spoil me" = not relatable.
T&A pics = not relatable.
Collabs = not approachable, because seemingly more interested in hanging out with fellow pros than civs. (Even though would be paid more for
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The wishlists & "spoil me" = not relatable.
T&A pics = not relatable.
Collabs = not approachable, because seemingly more interested in hanging out with fellow pros than civs. (Even though would be paid more for
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But because of the nature of SW, there are a lot of things people don't share about themselves on socials, to keep their professional & personal lives separate. So in some circumstances it can be difficult to find out what things someone likes that don't cost any money, for example
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November 11, 2025 at 11:10 AM
But because of the nature of SW, there are a lot of things people don't share about themselves on socials, to keep their professional & personal lives separate. So in some circumstances it can be difficult to find out what things someone likes that don't cost any money, for example
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The note about not seeming "approachable" because of the content posted - that rings true.
To me, "approachable" is linked with "relatability" (in the context of SW). If I don't think I could relate to someone, I reckon we wouldn't get along because we're just too different, so
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To me, "approachable" is linked with "relatability" (in the context of SW). If I don't think I could relate to someone, I reckon we wouldn't get along because we're just too different, so
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November 11, 2025 at 11:06 AM
The note about not seeming "approachable" because of the content posted - that rings true.
To me, "approachable" is linked with "relatability" (in the context of SW). If I don't think I could relate to someone, I reckon we wouldn't get along because we're just too different, so
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To me, "approachable" is linked with "relatability" (in the context of SW). If I don't think I could relate to someone, I reckon we wouldn't get along because we're just too different, so
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The thing about posting images & videos on social media is that sometimes people don't read the accompanying text to the pic. But even if there are no words added, it's still important to remember that the person is an entire being, even if you're only seeing a snapshot.
November 11, 2025 at 11:01 AM
The thing about posting images & videos on social media is that sometimes people don't read the accompanying text to the pic. But even if there are no words added, it's still important to remember that the person is an entire being, even if you're only seeing a snapshot.
Woke from my most recent nap with a twinge in my neck.
Shoutout to my fellow oldies who get injured doing nothing!
Ageing is grand.
Shoutout to my fellow oldies who get injured doing nothing!
Ageing is grand.
November 11, 2025 at 10:58 AM
Woke from my most recent nap with a twinge in my neck.
Shoutout to my fellow oldies who get injured doing nothing!
Ageing is grand.
Shoutout to my fellow oldies who get injured doing nothing!
Ageing is grand.
I wonder if I could achieve subspace. Yes, I deliberately chose the word "achieve".
Being sober, I can't achieve a different state with alcohol or other substances.
But also because I medically can't orgsm, I can't reach a different state that way, either.
And in all honesty, I
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Being sober, I can't achieve a different state with alcohol or other substances.
But also because I medically can't orgsm, I can't reach a different state that way, either.
And in all honesty, I
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November 11, 2025 at 10:46 AM
I wonder if I could achieve subspace. Yes, I deliberately chose the word "achieve".
Being sober, I can't achieve a different state with alcohol or other substances.
But also because I medically can't orgsm, I can't reach a different state that way, either.
And in all honesty, I
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Being sober, I can't achieve a different state with alcohol or other substances.
But also because I medically can't orgsm, I can't reach a different state that way, either.
And in all honesty, I
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"I could post this photo as a trap [...] Besides, it's always better when they respond to something of mine I haven't posted for them, when it's unexpected."
--Tilly Lawless, "Nothing But My Body"
This goes along with my theory that even though people post so many thirst traps,
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--Tilly Lawless, "Nothing But My Body"
This goes along with my theory that even though people post so many thirst traps,
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!["I could post this photo as a trap [...] Besides, it's always better when they respond to something of mine I haven't posted for them, when it's unexpected."
--Tilly Lawless, "Nothing But My Body"
This goes along with my theory that even though people post so many thirst traps, they may actually want to be acknowledged for other things. Because bodies are bodies, but personalities & observations & opinions are how connections are actually formed.
Do people also want to be acknowledged as being hot? I figure yes, but in the manner of they're hot *and* smart *and* creative *and* funny *and* caring. Not just "hot", but "hot *and*".
Never forget the *and* - it's where your truth worth is, and will be valued even if your appearance changes. The real ones recognise this.](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:xf6qljili3m7n4ykcc6qknnq/bafkreiey22bwgj6q5nzb67xmp4obtdghfuugk4qfwhap4yxncnfqx6jtfy@jpeg)
November 11, 2025 at 10:35 AM
"I could post this photo as a trap [...] Besides, it's always better when they respond to something of mine I haven't posted for them, when it's unexpected."
--Tilly Lawless, "Nothing But My Body"
This goes along with my theory that even though people post so many thirst traps,
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--Tilly Lawless, "Nothing But My Body"
This goes along with my theory that even though people post so many thirst traps,
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