I still don't think I've had the opportunity to process either of my parents' deaths. And I don't know when I'll have that opportunity. But this Christmas in particular felt lonely and hurt a lot more than I thought it would.

Today I just feel... alone. And like I'm intruding on the rest of my family's Christmas. And its really really hard to try to maintain a smile for the sake of my family. I ended up spending most of the day alone, either crying or sleeping.

I love their candles btw

Every little bit helps, even if it's just $10 or $15 so I can get some lunch today. I appreciate any help.

I am hoping to get about $40 of this goal today so that I can get me some groceries. Any help from donations or sharing this around would be appreciated.

But I can’t go that long without my phone. We are so close to being able to catch up with everything and stay afloat and it just couldn’t hold out until Monday. I am so beyond frustrated and tired. I don’t know what else to do.