i don't know how relatable it is to others. and i dont know how much of a "baby" i am for saying all the depressing stuff but that's how it is. just wanted to put my thoughts out there even if it is jumbled mess

sometimes i feel like by trying to make myself liked, i push people away. its sad. makes think a lot. should i be bad then? i dont know. i want to be happy. but it doesn't feels like i can or ever will

i wish i could express myself for everyone to understand but most of the times (all the time) it feels like im telling a riddle and no one can solve it. i like people. and i like people liking me. i want them to. but with all thoughts that i have it feels so difficult sometimes to feel that love

sometimes i feel like im wasting time by existing. i feel so far behind, so out of place that i don't even what im doing here. sometimes my thoughts a mess, like right now