...i get that the moral is to NOT be hong lu in how detached he ultimately is, but maybe given how things are here in the real world, maybe it's better i just become a damn cloud and stop trying to drag myself through mud and glass like this.

like everyone just accuses him of rage baiting and testing their patience or claim he's just arrogant and too privileged to care, meanwhile he's giving the weakest, wryest smile in response just taking everything they say to heart the whole time; unable to really argue back. haha...

None of my physical/digital hobbies are either affordable or space-respectful. None of them. Tabletops are somehow far too restrictive and laissez-faire about their systems. Tabletop roleplay is nothing like collaborative roleplay. I have nothing to ask for. Nothing to really create and share.