In that time, I had SLEEPLESS NIGHTS because I was worried for what these numbers mean to me - they mean approval, validation, opportunities; these things can be all given to me by people who love me as me,
but not in the context of art

I will do my best to be active here from now on as well

that when i restarted on twitter : "If I got this much and this many opportunities without trying, I WILL be able to go back there WHILE im trying"

And Im trying - when i had to halt posting because of a two month work period, i drove my mind crazy - it is really bad how much i let this get to me

when my post did well LOL. i know that this mentality is REALLY BAD but I can NOT turn it off. I know that drawing is my calling, but its just myself; and I still love my parents but also myself, partially at least lol

On IG, I got my following handed to me without much effort so i thought

Bro my I pulled like 100+ and all of mine are so shit

I love your art so so much <3

CUTEEEEE