i have been waiting for over a year to kill traitor mctraitorpants
for nothing

i just miss being able to create stories with my friends. i miss the open experimental space to figure shit out, and step out of my comfort zone.
i miss the times before things i poured love and effort into became shameful memories for others.

its 1am
goodnight

so i fall asleep imagining that i didn't kill simon in the backstory, that julia never made a pact (and wishing i had more information about her patron)
i imagine them living a long peaceful life together
i imagine adva animatics
and think one day, ill revisit and make liz what I wanted her to be

there's this corner of my heart that's been in denial that there haven't been sessions in over a year or two
and i know i don't need permission from anyone to put them in a different story and change the details
but it's not like i can casually bring them to another table with the same people