idk maybe i'll just attempt to visualize while i sleep. i haven't been having many cohesive dreams as of late. haven't been having many dreams period.

but i don't know what's left to do in order to speed up the process. a lot can happen in 6 months. it's true. in 6 months i could magically be in college again. it just feels like we have to jump through a lot of hoops to get to the end goal. when law of assumption says otherwise.

i don't know what's wrong with me. usually i enjoy listening to subs and it feels like doors are opening in the background that i will soon see. i've been staying consistent with a certain playlist that i feel is guaranteed to take me and my bf out of our situations and placed together +

then all it takes is my mom making her existence known, then suddenly i feel the need to lock in and manifest to my fullest. i said that i'd make today just scripting for as long as possible. today i'm going to write. but as im listening to subs rn, it just feels like empty music. +

Once I leave, I'll go back to consistency with my pinterest playlist. Not sure how I'm going to chronically listen with my bf coexisting with me, but that's neither here or there lmao.

I've been hopping back and forth from face subs, to body subs, to now just a catch all pinterest sub while looking at my pinboard. Now we're doing another set of catch all sub, this time with the sole intention of leaving. +

pls i want like..smth idk it gave me items to choose from and a corresponding link idk how this works

it only goes up from here. i believe it. after we demolish the blocks in our path, it's smooth sailing from here. once you get started, it gets easier.

he's not rlly into manifestation, so i don't talk to him about it that much unless it involves our future. but lowkey is this not what loass is or is my delusion peaking cuz it's my bf

but reddit is doing a lil 2 month challenge with accountability and im so mad cuz i tried to do the chatgpt method and didn't make it very far cuz cycle,,,,,,,,,,,

which is the main reason why my monthly anythings dont get very far. period comes in and has me bed bound for a lil bit </3