you ever stay up at night thinking of how disgusting of a person you are to the point it makes you nauseous. no. just me

he used to be my favorite... i don't like enstars anymore but i loved him sooo much he was my favorite ever for a year. i even have a nazuna nui

i miss nazuna

antidepressants when they make you more depressed instead of helping you
i feel so lifeless

i'm just. not enjoying anything i listen to or play through or read or anything. even my favorite things don't make me happy anymore. i try to work to occupy my time but i'm so fatigued i have hardly any motivation to do it... siiiigh

breaking news: man writes extremely petty rant explaining why kazui is objectively the most cat coded character in milgram

i feel guilty for everything i don't get it at all get me out of here

gonna add "talking to my friends when it's late for them" to the "reasons i feel like a bad person list"
i kind of hate whenever i admire someone.... i feel sick whenever i talk to this one person and i KNOW he likes me but i just feel like it's wrong to talk to him or that he hates me always auuugh

it's 3am and i still can't sleep

"no andy, don't go upstairs! c'mon, you have me!!" and then she just sat there planning a bunch of shit i had 0 valuable input on

OH FOR CONTEXT. this is about a friend who is playing p5r