Darn these morals of mine for being so big and loud. Darn them to heck.

Tbh I'm gonna be fine and I'm glad my Kobo has buttons; it really won't be that bad and I'm probably just gonna get a different case and I'll adjust but this is just me rn:

BSFFR my dog broke my page turner and this is such a first world problem rn but I have flu brain and I just wanted to be a lil burrito and read and now I have to click my button and I'm mad I have to use brain power I don't have to solve this bc I refuse to shop on Amazon anymore 😭

I literally feel like every time I sit down to try and take a breath and have some bone-snooze-brain-rot time I have to roll back and get caught back up on the despair I missed, just in case I missed the end of the fucking world.

What the FUCK is even happening anymore and WHERE do I go to stop it.

I was just standing outside last night screaming at the sky because I am so fucking ENRAGED that I finally heal to a place of happiness and health & the world starts collapsing???

"YOU DON'T GET TO DO THIS TO ME! Not now; not after I've worked this hard. I have suffered ENOUGH. I deserve peace."

And like, personally? Emotionally? Mentally (and self discovery pathway) sort of health?

Best I have ever been. Genuinely, I am at my top tier qualify of life.

WELL EVIDENTLY I DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT?? I can just... *move* the space heater around my house to warm up the rooms I'm going to be in.

Just can go to bed at 7p like I'm on a low broil setting or something AND SAVE MONEY?

only costs $80 one time; follow me for more life hacks. 💅

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The incredible thing is that this space heater is strong enough to warm up my entire bedroom, and my house has absolutely horrific heating because it is O L D with leaky windows and radiators that work in 1/3 of the rooms.

I gave up on $$$ gas bills and chose to freeze, set the therm to 65.

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IT WORKED BY THE WAY HAHA

I GET TO TAKE A HOT SHOWER

I've never had this happen. It's finally 6°F here and it was -4°F when I woke up. I don't really *need* hot water but I know it's a problem.

I guess just let that go for a while and hope it works? Give it the college try? 😅

Update I sure did fall asleep by 9p and I was awake by 7a 😭

I am on Fable most actively for the book community, but Bky & Tumblr are my mains now. Not going back to TT & a FK U to meta.

I read mostly romance, dark romance & fantasy, and anything exciting or thought provoking; I'll try out ANYTHING once! I LOVE a good book and am not afraid to DNF.

💝✨

I'm currently in the grieving process and really thankful for therapy this week to help me process through some of it. It's a very conflicting time to be human and I am really thankful this is a shared emotion for a large community.

I clawed my way out of the underworld 6 years ago and started finding myself shortly after.. it brings me so much peace to finally feel like I have somewhere to call home; that I am someone who is home.

Knowing myself after so long is such a joy. I am so happy to be alive.