Me @ me: DON'T EVER THINK ABOUT AN AU WHERE ART IS AN ANCILLARY AND STUCK BASICALLY IN THE SAME SITUATION THAT CANON MURDERBOT. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT AN ANCILLARY WORLD WHERE THE SECUNITS EXIST AND ART AND MURDERBOT ARE OLD ACQUAINTANCES MEETING CENTURIES LATER AFTER THEIR WORLD ENDED. DON'T DO IT.

If I was an artist I would make so many sketches for this.

I'm writer who doesn't write. 🥀

• This would mean that Damian and Becky have an almost-like siblings relationship and I am all for it. 🥹

• Yor also works in the castle but no one knew she existed until Loid arrived and then she started to take up more presence and have an actual life in the castle.

• (She had a druid family...)

• Loid would not be a druid but from another kingdom trying to prevent King Desmond from becoming more and more radicalized against magic users.

• He found Anya on his way to the kingdom of Desmond.

• He can't get ride of her anymore since Becky made her her maid and she is too valuable now.

CAN YOU IMAGINE?

• Anya starting shit first day in the kingdom and fighting the crown prince.

• Becky would be a Lady of the court and happy someone stood up against that pompous ass. Her family would be military/knights.

• Anya would still have the ability to read minds aka she is a druid.

Worst part is that after I finished the audiobook I went to the tag because re: I like spoilers/know where things go and apparently my boy, indeed, DOES NOT LEARN.

[ — ] Even like that I liked it enough to search for the physical version (since it's long enough that a re-listening would be useless at this point).

I am now reading that and it's easier for my concentration because I know how things end and... /I'm going to cry/, people.

I am probably not going to have more scenes with Vis and Callidus' father, isn't it? 😞

He knows what he needed to know and he warned Vis.

I listened to Chapter III ✨twice✨

THE FUNERAL.

Eidhin revelation of Veridius' promise AND HOW HE SAID NO.

JUST TO DRIVE HOME VIS CHOICE AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER. IT HURTS SO MUCH, I DON'T WANT HIM TO COMPROMISE.

(Eidhin, I love you so much— but I would never have guessed that spelling lol)

Vis has not even healed and people are already trying to kill him again. 😭

At least I am not going to miss his first meeting with Callidus' father. (?) Not gonna lie, that was my biggest fear: what if we had a time-skip and I was 'forced' to fill the blanks of that?

/Oh, the pain!/ [ ✨the angst✨ ]

(I probably can and /will/ start thinking about Caeror and Veridius in the Academy. I want to see more of Cearor before going too deep in my headcanons, but just trying to put my first impressions down made my brain go *BRRRWNN*. So, you know. I will wait, thought.)

Started it yesterday. 🥰

/Finally/

For some reason a two-day wait felt like an eternity after forgetting about the book itself for two months—

I did read the first chapter in the author's website a while ago and no matter how cliche of me, I still love that final line. Let's kill a god!

And how do I explain that? Just no.

(I would also be more happy to just soak in the feeling if I didn't find myself mortified by it. I have know him for almost three years and I am just admitting to myself that /it is/ a crush.)

I AM [THIS] CLOSE TO CONVINCE MYSELF —

“ I don't know what time Callidus dies. ”

VS

" I know /exactly/ the moment Callidus dies. ”

AND

" You will /burn/ for this. ”

Because Callidus would die without knowing the true of his Sentinel.

Callidus would die without the opportunity to call Vis [his] Sentinel out loud and in public.

Callidus would still die.

THE FOUNDATION GAME WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER, TOO. A SENTINEL DEFENDING HIS GUIDE, EVEN IF THEY CAN'T MAKE IT PUBLIC.)

The real angst would come later. 😇