i need to sleep
i need to stop thinking about this
im sorry. im sorry

theyre so nice. theyll probably tell me its ok. theyll give me so much forgiveness.

if they did give up, i wouldnt blame them at all

i dont know
im scared. they're all so nice. everyone is. and i just keep spiraling like this. spurning it. getting jealous. over and over. they are all so endlessly nice to me and this is how i repay them and it hurts me even more. im sorry i just
gh

i wish we were closer, yet im the sole reason we arent. my anxiety and fear and panic and jealousy is why we arent. i push them away every single day because of it. i dont deserve them. im sorry. im sorry.

im sorry

i dont want to burden them. i dont want to waste their time. i dont want pity.

i dont want to be a burden to them. theyve done so much for me and i still keep crying. getting jealous. getting frustrated. what kind of friend does that? not a good one.

theres nothing wrong. theyve done nothing wrong. and yet i still feel so jealous and frustrated

i wish i vanished when i had the chance instead of reaching out. at least then i wouldn't have hurt any of them. they wouldn't care about me. they wouldn't have to deal with me. deal with this.

all i can be is a burden to them. i cant stop it. i try and try and i can't do it. i freak out over nothing anyway and push them all away.

they're nothing but nice and i still end up like this. what is my problem?

when will they finally have enough of me?

a good question....... hm..........

TRUE!

if you could find a bunch of. ah. volunteers, there is a way to get balls that big... teehee. teehee

true!!!
i will swoon for a girl with giant sloshing balls bigger than me in my entirety

and also wonder if she will shove me inside of them. yknow. as one does,

fair!!! aha
i mean, its natural to wonder...

im just unfortunately cursed with being maybe the only person in existence who likes cock vore, but not nut or cum or any of that LMAO
i just think huge full gock and balls are insanely hot,,

...anyway she'd probably be pretty pent up, id think?

,,thats not a question i think i could answer very well, ill admit, aha

not smth i like to think about too much, aha

real and true

theyll be even more giant when they get done churning ...

oh thats why im not apologizing!

im NOT sorry. balls,,

this is what you have to deal with if you follow my alt sorry not sorry

im doin ok it just
wasnt fun to wake up and think about it, lmao
its on me for sleeping at 4am in a horny daze frankly that is a horrible recipe

TRUE