people work backbreaking horrible jobs every day. plenty of artists double my output with better quality. What right do I have to take a break when others work so hard?

Tired.

Need to finish commissions, need to do work, need some kind of fulfilment. Hours pass with only wip sketches done, barely legible. Need to take a break, try to draw for myself, hours pass, flaccid sketches nobody wants to see. Don't know what happened to the guy I was at the start of the year

Pen touches screen. Dread rises up from my throat. Is this gonna take forever? Are my lines gonna be fucked up again? Will I make a major anatomy mistake? How many redos will this take? An hour passes. Two hours. Uncolored, unshaded. Unacceptable. Not worth it. Another, again. Two hours pass.

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