me when im a stupid idiot who has never had a job but my anxiety wont let me apply for jobs bc it feels like a pointless humiliation ritual bc i am probably unhireable bc im a stupid idiot who has never had a job

I cannot think about serious things for too long bc then I feel too many strong emotions so maybe I'll go take a nap about it

the gender clinic people have still not emailed me my assessment letter from an appointment well over a month ago despite them emailing them asking for it multiple times. I am going to start biting people.

last night i had a really vivid dream that started out alright but ended with me graphically killing myself and then i woke up and had to pretend that everything was cool and great