re: folder name: fuck dj khaled

I'd probably die before I compromise my artistic integrity, but the problem with that is that my art is too integral to my lifestyle. And I've lost the will to paint! So I guess I really AM just going to go broke and die in the street anyway. Sorry for doubting you, Mom. 🩵

On the outside, I look like I could live the rest of my life happy and wealthy and content, but my work is built on my ideas. And more time I spend with no ideas, the closer the threat of squalor becomes. One day I will stop receiving money for my music. What will I do then? Sell my soul on credit?

They say "never meet your idols", but I think even more essential is "never become your idols". Especially if you have bipolar that just acts like depression. Because then you never get anything done. And you feel like shit in your huge house. Like why aren't I helping the homeless with all of this?

As for me, I don't know what I'll do. I don't know what I've been doing. Natsuki going to prison has been the largest event of the last 5 months; everything else is a blur of the same six rooms.

I'm still alone. Shuyaku talks to me like normal. He's also worried about Yuri, but even more for Natsuki. Whenever I'm not busy sulking in bed, he's too busy with work, so we've never talked about everything properly. I really hope he gets some breaks or something soon.

Yuri, however, didn't know anything about that whole operation, and she was able to get away scot-free. I sort of wish she had come to my place, but she's now going through new trauma of her own, so it's probably best for that echo chamber to never come to fruition. So Yuri's at Monika's house.

All of this is to say that Natsuki and Yuri got evicted from their local-owned bakery because a worker finally ratted out Natsuki's cocaine lab. So yeah, Natsuki's in prison. I don't know her sentence. but I seriously hope she's okay. I used to not be religious, but I'm praying for her safety.

It appears that every year you come closer to looking like Will Wood

And no, I'm still entirely unmedicated. This just randomly happened today for some reason? Not saying I'm ungrateful LOL I needed this

I thought to myself, "Oh. Guess they'll have to draw the hopscotch again in the morning."

Keep drawing hopscotch. 🩵

This'll also probably be good for the paranoia. I have come out of eight (8) walks alive, so here's to 357 more LOL.