how am i supposed to rest with the knowledge that i lost all the passion for something i wasted 15k on, how do i rest when every day i have to hear my mom and dad argue, how do i rest when nothing i can do is fun anymore, and i cant see a future where i actually get to be happy

i dont have the time to rest, im not in a situation fit for rest

Don't worry I'll make this a 2v2 and I totally won't throw on purpose so we lose and get smothered

WHY DO I HAVE TO GIVE IT MY ALL TOWARDS EVERYTHING OR BE VIEWED AS A FAILURE JUST FOR MY EFFORT TO BE WORTH NOTHING AND I RECIEVE NOTHING FROM WHAT I PUT IN WHY CANT I EVER BE AT ROCK BOTTOM WITHOUT SOMEHOW GOING LOWER WHY CANT I BE TRULY HAPPY ANYMORE LIFE IS A HELL I SHOULDVE GIVEN UP

I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO TRY MY BEST EVERYTIME I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO BE THE BEST AT ART TO FEEL LOVED I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO BE THE BEST TO FEEL ANYTHING POSITIVE FROM PLAYING GAMES I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO BE THE BEST TO MAKE THE 10K I PAY FOR CLASS WORTH IT I JUST WANT TO BE MEDIOCRE IS THAT TOO MUCH

I WANT ESCAPE FROM THE HORRORS I DEAL WITH EVERYDAY AND I WANT ESCAPE FROM HOW HORRIBLE MY LIFE IS I DONT WANT TO BE REMINDED ABOUT HOW SHIT MY LIFE IS AND HOW EVERYTHING I DO IS MEANINGLESS AND THERES NO POINT TO IT ALL WHY CANT I HAVE A REAL BREAK AN ACTUAL FUCKING BREAK

My reward for spending 70+ minutes in a single run is DYING TO A RANDOM CHANCE INSTA KILL how fun, is that fun game design? is this fun to experience having to play 100% perfectly so I can DIE INSTANTLY to the final boss of the game and have to start from the very beginning having achieved NOTHING

If you do something with Madomme I will go insane, off the walls deranged, a little coocoo, I'd go ham perhaps

I wish there were mods that changed the Beetle Queen to be sexier, but alas, I don't have the money to commission someone for that and don't have the time to learn how to 3d model

Okay I got it to work while mods are active idk why it wasn't working the first time I tested it

"what KEEPS my silly notepad editing..." I can't believe I forgot an entire word in that sentence

Thank you my liege