- Sixers: Get whatever you can for PG at the deadline and I'm still waving the #TradeMcCain flag. I'll literally die on that hill.

Can't trade 7'1/50m/no knees so I'll relax on that. But it would be nice to see some sort of package deal for a 4/5 who can also stretch the floor (should've kept Vuc)

Haha thanks! It's a bad habit as of late but I'm stuck in my ways. I blame YT and the state of existence.

At least we have hoops back. It's been a decent distraction for.

Why the outburst of FB-like emo shitposts?

Sleep deprivation and not necessarily numbing as much as I'd like to. I'll reiterate that this is pretty much for me an exercise - for me/by me - in using my account to express my emotions, finally (or again).

... I have nothing left to give to the world it seems. At least that's how it truly feels. It's pretty much reality as well.

Coping skills? Numb the pain and try really fucking hard not to feel anything for anyone or even myself.

Who knows, maybe one day I'll actually see BC for retirement.

"Gone, Gone / Thank You"

The biggest motivational factor for wanting to isolate is knowing how much pain I've been in for 20+ years and at this point, it would be unfair to attach myself to any particular individual.

PTSD, childhood trauma, lack of closure, seeing both parents die before 19...

Overall, being lonely is a choice. I'd rather not waste any energy reaching out and seeking any sort of help/friendship/camaraderie.

Again. Effort. It's tough to explain but I'm empty. (And no, God isn't the way. Too far gone.)

Am I sick? Um depression hits some harder than others and I'm not a big fan of taking care of myself. Guess you could call me a lazy bastard?

Not sure. I'm out of excuses. My life has been over, since 2012. 13-14 years later, I'm just sick of putting in any effort. Nothing works. I'm done.

I'm too much of a punk to take my own life, I'm just not living at the moment.

I keep asking, "what's the point?"

Not a matter of feeling any sort of sorry for myself. I'm tired of blaming myself, and the energy it takes to blame others requires effort I don't care to use.

What's worse, wishing you were never born or wishing you had a different existence?

I'm not alive these days.

Thanks mate, I appreciate you for the wishes.