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i am both a lover and a fighter. do not erase my sins, and do not take away my consequences. i will sit in my shame, in my pains, in the hell of my own making. do not shield me from my fears for they are not my greatest enemies, but my sworn protectors. and i will soothe them on my own.
i would rather crawl on my hands and knees through my own internal dessert landscape than to be enmeshed in someone else's nightmare.
November 15, 2025 at 9:15 PM
i would rather crawl on my hands and knees through my own internal dessert landscape than to be enmeshed in someone else's nightmare.
therapy is brutal - brutal!
November 10, 2025 at 1:06 PM
therapy is brutal - brutal!
i dont want to think i just want to feel
November 1, 2025 at 4:49 PM
i dont want to think i just want to feel
went into the abyss and made it back! now im dancing around with my shadows, singing love songs to the little lost(found) pieces of my soul
October 20, 2025 at 3:44 AM
went into the abyss and made it back! now im dancing around with my shadows, singing love songs to the little lost(found) pieces of my soul
i told this boy at work you can just call me, and he said oh ill call you all right, ill harass you, and i said opp my guy what? anyways, this really feels like im being tested smthng bc id rather go back to dealing with that other one that really made me feel some type of way forreal, and i just no
October 14, 2025 at 7:29 AM
i told this boy at work you can just call me, and he said oh ill call you all right, ill harass you, and i said opp my guy what? anyways, this really feels like im being tested smthng bc id rather go back to dealing with that other one that really made me feel some type of way forreal, and i just no
my main thing right now, is i dont care to learn about other people - not in the general sense - but in the i dont have the space to learn and understand why others function in the way they do bc i spend so much trying to figure out myself, and how others function is not my business. im not closed
October 10, 2025 at 3:31 PM
my main thing right now, is i dont care to learn about other people - not in the general sense - but in the i dont have the space to learn and understand why others function in the way they do bc i spend so much trying to figure out myself, and how others function is not my business. im not closed
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the void ignores our wishful intent
October 10, 2025 at 2:01 AM
the void ignores our wishful intent
i just want to be normal
October 7, 2025 at 12:54 AM
i just want to be normal
heavy on the leave my old life behind and start a new
October 6, 2025 at 10:11 PM
heavy on the leave my old life behind and start a new
lucid dreamt again and so now when im in that state (since the last time i realized i can) i just start flying through the space in in. this time a subway platform, mostly empty, very liminal space esque, and only a few people walking around. i also know not to spend too long trying to figure out
October 4, 2025 at 4:01 PM
lucid dreamt again and so now when im in that state (since the last time i realized i can) i just start flying through the space in in. this time a subway platform, mostly empty, very liminal space esque, and only a few people walking around. i also know not to spend too long trying to figure out
therapy has been both the most beautiful and terrifying thing ever - but its making me feel real for the first time in a long time, maybe even ever!
October 2, 2025 at 12:56 AM
therapy has been both the most beautiful and terrifying thing ever - but its making me feel real for the first time in a long time, maybe even ever!
im in my period and it feels so cleansing and also ive been si heavily disassociating (bc im in therapy now and doing the work) i think it helped bring me back a bit
October 2, 2025 at 12:54 AM
im in my period and it feels so cleansing and also ive been si heavily disassociating (bc im in therapy now and doing the work) i think it helped bring me back a bit
every time i say im very smart i also say im very stupid bc im a dynamic person who knows and doesnt
October 2, 2025 at 12:52 AM
every time i say im very smart i also say im very stupid bc im a dynamic person who knows and doesnt
i love being a devious little flirt, bc its all about playyy! which is why im so bad at flirting with people i actually like 😭 it feels too real and too serious for some reason!
October 2, 2025 at 12:50 AM
i love being a devious little flirt, bc its all about playyy! which is why im so bad at flirting with people i actually like 😭 it feels too real and too serious for some reason!
i dont want to live by someone elses timeline, by unspoken social norms and regulations, by the conditions imposed on me, on all of us. i want to live my life for me, in my time, through my eyes, with my mind
September 27, 2025 at 11:42 PM
i dont want to live by someone elses timeline, by unspoken social norms and regulations, by the conditions imposed on me, on all of us. i want to live my life for me, in my time, through my eyes, with my mind
one of the residents i work with and i were having a conversation today about love and all that good stuff, she has a beautiful love story and i talk a lot about my heart and getting my fairytale romance etc., and she told me today as she has before, i hope you find someone good, but today she
September 25, 2025 at 5:06 AM
one of the residents i work with and i were having a conversation today about love and all that good stuff, she has a beautiful love story and i talk a lot about my heart and getting my fairytale romance etc., and she told me today as she has before, i hope you find someone good, but today she
you may not be sentimental, but i sure am. and thats just me, theres nothing wrong with that. but its true, you may not be, but i am.
September 24, 2025 at 2:46 AM
you may not be sentimental, but i sure am. and thats just me, theres nothing wrong with that. but its true, you may not be, but i am.
giving myself the grace i deserve because i acted in the best way i could, with what i had, and i can and do and will learn from my mistakes
September 23, 2025 at 3:49 AM
giving myself the grace i deserve because i acted in the best way i could, with what i had, and i can and do and will learn from my mistakes
im a messy, dirty, gross, and chaotic little bitch and i dont mind it not one bit
September 23, 2025 at 3:45 AM
im a messy, dirty, gross, and chaotic little bitch and i dont mind it not one bit
im not saying im worried about it, im just wondering when
September 23, 2025 at 3:44 AM
im not saying im worried about it, im just wondering when
i went to see the ocean, asked her what she had to say, and listened. 'dear child' she said, 'you are not alone. for i am vast and never ending and you are within my soul. you are from within the wombs of the old gods, you are sewn with strings of light and darkness, and you will fly again once more
September 21, 2025 at 5:11 AM
i went to see the ocean, asked her what she had to say, and listened. 'dear child' she said, 'you are not alone. for i am vast and never ending and you are within my soul. you are from within the wombs of the old gods, you are sewn with strings of light and darkness, and you will fly again once more
you may not be sentimental, but i am. and my heart is not broken, it has not shattered, its just missing a small piece, which may seem insignificant to you, but it is to me. for i must find a way to fill it for myself. and im not worried, i know i will find a way, but for now i must let it sit there
September 21, 2025 at 2:28 AM
you may not be sentimental, but i am. and my heart is not broken, it has not shattered, its just missing a small piece, which may seem insignificant to you, but it is to me. for i must find a way to fill it for myself. and im not worried, i know i will find a way, but for now i must let it sit there
i sometimes feel like i never got to play with love and romance, from childhood on it was always silent, and secret, and always hidden in the shadows
September 21, 2025 at 2:02 AM
i sometimes feel like i never got to play with love and romance, from childhood on it was always silent, and secret, and always hidden in the shadows
grief sits in the pit of my stomach, and i have the urge to fill it up so full that i dont have to sit with her. but i dont want to deny her a seat at the table. i invite her in, let her sit beside me, i nourish her and allow her to breathe and mourn as she must. i will no longer deny her that.
September 20, 2025 at 7:14 PM
grief sits in the pit of my stomach, and i have the urge to fill it up so full that i dont have to sit with her. but i dont want to deny her a seat at the table. i invite her in, let her sit beside me, i nourish her and allow her to breathe and mourn as she must. i will no longer deny her that.