What do you even do when nothing gives back to you anymore, none of your hobbies do anything for you, all the interactions with friends still leaves you feeling empty and alone no matter what

I embarrass myself a lot but I guess that's okay... I just wonder if I'll ever be where I want to be, I want to surprise myself because I can't even imagine attaining what I want.

Just can't do anything too fun for more than an hour or two before I start getting really stressed out and scared

Im on my phone rn but the song I was listening to at the time was Fanfare of a Lost Man by Kaminarigumo

they do sync up if I go all the way in either direction

It's not easy

It's normal to want community, I think you'd just need to find places where you can be sorta like a cat and show up on your own terms, I think obligations for social things can suck for someone like me because I like to be able to choose if I can be alone for a little longer etc.

This all might be gross but, I also gave him a little utility belt of chemicals he wears full of vials and other things, so when out on foot, or in a fight, he can quickly create compounds on the spot using himself as an ingredients cabinet

Plucking the fur from his constantly burning tail can give him carbon or the specific gas it produces, ripping out a tooth that's no longer made of bone though it will grow back like new as an ingredient, tears, saliva, blood, parts of his body now changed to double as infinite ingredients

It's for a story thing I've been making between him and Tepes, But Fritz specifically a few characteristics this immortality gives him is he's kind of engineered his body to regrow body parts, so he's altered his own body as a way to give him ingredients for his alchemy