Being unemployed and single with no kids in your upper 30s is great because it's like yeah you know what sure I'll watch the 2008 Major League Baseball All Star Game sure why not I'll watch Gunsmoke on Pluto TV sure who fuckin cares life is meaningless and I got literally nothin else goin on

Random list of good things: my mom, Juliet, a cream soda, weed, my best friend Ruby, hopefully spring soon, a record I preordered last year is finally on its way to me, I can still do Pizza Night this week, I have therapy tomorrow. Uh, Idk anything else rn but I like to end therapy with good things

Idk man. I'm glad I have weed tbh. However, being high and sad as fuck absolutely fuckin SUCKS. But it's better than being sad as fuck and not high, so there is that. My mom is really supportive of me too, she knew that place was bad for me.

The worst part is that I'm currently in the process of stepping down one of my medications, Risperidone. Should be a happy thing, maybe. Finally feeling good enough to get off a medication. I mean, it kinda messed with my head a lil bit, but it was nice to think of life after medicine. Fuck that now

Anyway, so yeah if you read all these in order idk I should probably say I had a huge fight with the owner of my job, where he fired me at the end. Did it all over text, by the way. Didn't come into to speak with me face to face to do it. Luckily I have a lot to send to the DoL for unemployment

My one wish in life, above all else, is just to be judged for me. Not be held to a standard of someone else, just to be looked at as an individual. I'm so sad man, I'm so fuckin tired. I just want to be accepted without having to conform to the standards of someone who's never tried to understand me

Everyone's an expert on emotional/mental health, gender issues, autism, ADHD, everyone's a fucking expert on me and what I feel and what I think and what I want to say just because they know someone who has ASD or they have ASD or I'm not androgynous enough or I never loudly pronounce my pronouns

Said I'm autistic so sometimes my monotonous voice gets mistaken for attitude when I don't have any. Again, the owner says "you're only saying that to avoid criticism because I'm AuDHD" like okay?? And what's that got to do with me? I feel so dejected. I'm so fuckin tired of this shit

Said I'm NB after the owner called me a young gentleman, and was told I only said something because I was being defensive about criticism. Say I was never comfortable to say anything. Owner of the company says "I'm gay and run a non profit, there's no way you wouldn't be comfortable to tell me that"

Got fired from my job today. I'm not even mad. I mean, I'm like a normal amount of angry I guess. I've never been so resoundingly not accepted by a group of people, as the ownership/employees of The Animal House. And it makes me sad. 1/whatever

When do you stop missing someone

Pronouncing Uncrustable like it's French

Bro I just wanna take a nice lady out on a soda date this spring/summer. Like just sit out on like a park bench somewhere and just drink glass bottle soda with a bendy straw. Where art thou o Weird Lady

Just an fyi, dissociation is not another word for "just not paying attention" or like "take a mental break." I hate when people use it so freely, it's a very real and very scary thing. Idk. Words mean things

Just audibly farted in front of a customer. Thought she was on the other side of the store but nope, she was definitely within ear shot

Isn't advertising fun these days? Hey here's that [insert celebrity or pop culture reference] to sell you some thing you don't want or need or some vacation you can't afford or some stupid bullshit

Do Nothing as an Act of Resistance

Trying to rizz up this older woman and I send her a video of the snowfall. Romantic, except from some IM BREATHING SO LOUDLY AND ITS WEIRD I HATE THIS

Yo some lady at my job wanted to know that we overcharge on dog food and dog grooms. I'm gonna say this once: if you yell at employees of a small business because the price is too high, then you forever lose your right to say that you support small businesses