And then I gotta wake up at 7am to work on Even More Things and then distract myself with bullshit so I don't lose it entirely, my head hurts from how stressed I've been, this existence is truly hell man

Sadposting cuz it's 3am cuz I stayed up working on things and its making me lose my goddamn mind, goodnight

I can disconnect from what I'm doing and I'm pretty good at treating it Exclusively as A Job but I'm tired of doing so, I don't wanna turn off my emotions when drawing but I gotta cuz it just hurts me so much, I hate like 80% of what I do at this point and I don't think It'll ever get better for me

I want to connect with people, I want to make something that feels meaningful, I'm tired of making products and being part of the problem of capitalism running rampant in the fandom but I also gotta eat yet I fucking hate what I'm doing and ughhh there's no answer that I can see, I feel so hopeless

I've been burned out to hell and back since around 2020 and I've had the "Just focus on the product, you're running a business here" Freelance Mindset since I started but each year it feels less and less aligned with who I am as a person and its REALLY taking a toll on my mental health, it sucks man

I still need to finish his shrine as well (or get it to an acceptable point) I'm just so lazyyyyy (and tired and sick and everything hurts but whatever I NEED to do this for him,,,)

Baby,,,

Ty!!! :3
But yeah its amazing what full fixation can do, the first BIG jump I had was between 2020-2021 cuz I got rly into a minecraft series, and then from 2021-2023 I was like "Ok I know now that I need to be obsessed to improve, what do I do now :((((" and That Anime heard my prayers,,,

Es que los fascistas son retrasados.
A ver, panda de seres superiores, ¿no os dais cuenta de que achacar el fascismo a no ser muy listo es hacerles el juego? Que lo mismo os estáis riendo de las personas con discapacidad intelectual sin ser el lápiz más afilado del estuche.

Hola, soy disca, no llames a los fascistas discas que no tiene nada que ver y nos insultas a nosotros. Haces que aceptar nuestra condición sea vergonzoso e incluso nos escondamos.
PERO YO NO LO QUIERO ASÍ, SOY BUENA PERSONA, JAMÁS PENSARÉ EN VOSOTROS PERO SOY BUENAAAAA

I need to clean up and color that too hmmmm

Por eso es un error pretender debatir con ellos argumentos o asuntos: porque los asuntos y los argumentos les importan un carajo. Lo único que quieren es golear y dejar al adversario «con el culo roto», como en el fútbol.