Spacehopper 🤷♀️
@spac3hopp3r.bsky.social
Reader, occasional writer, TV geek, destroyer of worlds (allegedly)
Today while I was wrapping presents I realised this year I can't write any from my cat with little 🐾 and I had to stop wrapping and have a cry 😢...So that is about how my Christmas is going.
December 21, 2025 at 3:14 PM
Today while I was wrapping presents I realised this year I can't write any from my cat with little 🐾 and I had to stop wrapping and have a cry 😢...So that is about how my Christmas is going.
I am not sleeping well at all at the moment. And apparently my stress levels have caused my childhood eczema to return full force which is now getting incredibly painful, especially behind my ears. The over the counter cream is not working & there are no Doctors appointments this side of Christmas🤕
December 6, 2025 at 1:54 PM
I am not sleeping well at all at the moment. And apparently my stress levels have caused my childhood eczema to return full force which is now getting incredibly painful, especially behind my ears. The over the counter cream is not working & there are no Doctors appointments this side of Christmas🤕
On Friday dad had his 2nd stroke in 9 years. Last time it completely changed his personality from calm & laid back to argumentative & easily frustrated. I can't do this all again. I am still traumatized, heartbroken & a deeply depressed void after everything else this year. There is NO help.
November 17, 2025 at 5:17 AM
On Friday dad had his 2nd stroke in 9 years. Last time it completely changed his personality from calm & laid back to argumentative & easily frustrated. I can't do this all again. I am still traumatized, heartbroken & a deeply depressed void after everything else this year. There is NO help.
I don't want to have anything to do with Christmas this year. I haven't the energy & my heart is empty. I keep making it very clear I am not interested. And yet I will get the blame for 'ruining' the 'family' Christmas. How many more years do I have to be on this torturous planet.
November 13, 2025 at 10:50 AM
I don't want to have anything to do with Christmas this year. I haven't the energy & my heart is empty. I keep making it very clear I am not interested. And yet I will get the blame for 'ruining' the 'family' Christmas. How many more years do I have to be on this torturous planet.
Went into town for the first time in months yesterday(have run out of everything) Still super fragile, so I burst into tears when I was in my favourite 2nd hand bookshop. The wonderful owner spared his own time to sit with me & offer me some grief & mental health advice. There are still kind people
October 16, 2025 at 8:49 PM
Went into town for the first time in months yesterday(have run out of everything) Still super fragile, so I burst into tears when I was in my favourite 2nd hand bookshop. The wonderful owner spared his own time to sit with me & offer me some grief & mental health advice. There are still kind people
I just had an argument so massive with my parents that I screamed, guttural & raw until my throat was sore. They told me to grow up. I can't leave. I have no support. I am traumatized, grieving &deeply depressed. Waiting lists for mental health start at 4 months. I sobbed until I had a panic attack.
September 6, 2025 at 3:26 PM
I just had an argument so massive with my parents that I screamed, guttural & raw until my throat was sore. They told me to grow up. I can't leave. I have no support. I am traumatized, grieving &deeply depressed. Waiting lists for mental health start at 4 months. I sobbed until I had a panic attack.
It took a depressingly short amount of time for all communication from most friends to completely stop while I struggle with grief, depression, isolation & a general void of enthusiasm/energy/motivation. If no one else cares, why should I? I am empty.
September 4, 2025 at 5:38 AM
It took a depressingly short amount of time for all communication from most friends to completely stop while I struggle with grief, depression, isolation & a general void of enthusiasm/energy/motivation. If no one else cares, why should I? I am empty.
In case you are wondering this what isolation really feels like. My cat died. It was traumatic. I don't speak much anymore. Few (2) of my friends have asked maybe once how I am doing. I am empty, broken, deeply unhappy, not sleeping or really eating, don't go out. Have nothing. This isn't a 'life'
July 24, 2025 at 12:29 AM
In case you are wondering this what isolation really feels like. My cat died. It was traumatic. I don't speak much anymore. Few (2) of my friends have asked maybe once how I am doing. I am empty, broken, deeply unhappy, not sleeping or really eating, don't go out. Have nothing. This isn't a 'life'
I am pretty done to be honest. Cat died last week. I am heartbroken. I have zero in person friends. My narcissistic boomer parents are driving me nuts. And this app is about to require ID I don't have (&/or not providing. So I guess I am about to become even more isolated.What the Fuck is the point.
July 14, 2025 at 6:10 PM
I am pretty done to be honest. Cat died last week. I am heartbroken. I have zero in person friends. My narcissistic boomer parents are driving me nuts. And this app is about to require ID I don't have (&/or not providing. So I guess I am about to become even more isolated.What the Fuck is the point.
Oh and today mum just got a skin cancer diagnosis after 2 YEARS of doctors gaslighting & giving her creams which did absolutely nothing...So, tell me again how the NHS isn't broken. I am pretty much done with this week.
July 8, 2025 at 1:27 PM
Oh and today mum just got a skin cancer diagnosis after 2 YEARS of doctors gaslighting & giving her creams which did absolutely nothing...So, tell me again how the NHS isn't broken. I am pretty much done with this week.
So.Dad in hospital last week, no wonder there are no beds when it takes 3 days for a constant to even show up. My cat is in renal failure & has stopped eating so I don't think he is going to be with us much longer. I am NOT ready for that...
July 8, 2025 at 1:25 PM
So.Dad in hospital last week, no wonder there are no beds when it takes 3 days for a constant to even show up. My cat is in renal failure & has stopped eating so I don't think he is going to be with us much longer. I am NOT ready for that...
Today has been mentally and physically stressful 😞 I don't have the energy for anything. My poor cat is hardly eating & there really isn't much I can do for him as he is in renal failure...they said he was doing okay a couple of weeks ago, but I don't think he is going to last the month. Heartbroken
July 7, 2025 at 3:49 PM
Today has been mentally and physically stressful 😞 I don't have the energy for anything. My poor cat is hardly eating & there really isn't much I can do for him as he is in renal failure...they said he was doing okay a couple of weeks ago, but I don't think he is going to last the month. Heartbroken
Going through a box of old stuff...found my pin up poster collection from the 90s...teenage me having to make the terribly hard decision between Baywatch hunk David Chokachi or British pop sensations @antanddec.com ....🤔 I will let you guess which one I chose 😏😋
July 5, 2025 at 3:12 PM
Going through a box of old stuff...found my pin up poster collection from the 90s...teenage me having to make the terribly hard decision between Baywatch hunk David Chokachi or British pop sensations @antanddec.com ....🤔 I will let you guess which one I chose 😏😋
Well, apparently I did not die in my sleep again...which is just disappointing at his point 😞
June 28, 2025 at 11:45 AM
Well, apparently I did not die in my sleep again...which is just disappointing at his point 😞
When depressive episodes happen they just hit you over the head with a sledgehammer with crippling emptiness. I spent most of the day in bed feeling completely drained in my brain & body. When I did venture out of my room said I just had a migraine because I don't have the energy to engage.
June 27, 2025 at 10:13 PM
When depressive episodes happen they just hit you over the head with a sledgehammer with crippling emptiness. I spent most of the day in bed feeling completely drained in my brain & body. When I did venture out of my room said I just had a migraine because I don't have the energy to engage.
Today has been a sad and lonely kind of day. But I did manage to put clean sheets on my bed, so...that I guess 🤷♀️
June 23, 2025 at 5:23 PM
Today has been a sad and lonely kind of day. But I did manage to put clean sheets on my bed, so...that I guess 🤷♀️
Right, just so I understand things correctly. The world is once again at the whims of a bunch of toddler man-babies fighting over power & oil. The cost of everything is about to spiral once again when I am already struggling to even buy basic toiletries....
June 18, 2025 at 1:55 PM
Right, just so I understand things correctly. The world is once again at the whims of a bunch of toddler man-babies fighting over power & oil. The cost of everything is about to spiral once again when I am already struggling to even buy basic toiletries....
It somehow annoys me immensely that 'they' are not wrong about a walk being good for your mental health. I will say, it is much easier to be persuaded to partake when the weather is like this #walks #mentalhealth #seaviews #sunshine
May 9, 2025 at 3:04 PM
It somehow annoys me immensely that 'they' are not wrong about a walk being good for your mental health. I will say, it is much easier to be persuaded to partake when the weather is like this #walks #mentalhealth #seaviews #sunshine
Cloudy Sunday and a temp drop of over 15°c since yesterday...a vibe
May 4, 2025 at 4:00 PM
Cloudy Sunday and a temp drop of over 15°c since yesterday...a vibe
Managed another walk, lungs slightly improving, and then read my book sitting on the Prom. Pretty decent couple of hours spent to be honest
May 2, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Managed another walk, lungs slightly improving, and then read my book sitting on the Prom. Pretty decent couple of hours spent to be honest
Enjoy these warm Spring views from my first walk in nearly a month...since a respiratory infection took hold of my lungs. I am still wheezing and coughing, but very, very slowly improving. This mile & a half round trip was all I could muster.
May 1, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Enjoy these warm Spring views from my first walk in nearly a month...since a respiratory infection took hold of my lungs. I am still wheezing and coughing, but very, very slowly improving. This mile & a half round trip was all I could muster.
It is gorgeously warm & sunny outside but I am still wrestling with a nasty cough from a respiratory virus I caught at the beginning of April. Any walking is a struggle for my lungs & my mental health is taking a hit. No energy or enthusiasm. This is why I wish people would not spread illnesses.
April 28, 2025 at 1:25 PM
It is gorgeously warm & sunny outside but I am still wrestling with a nasty cough from a respiratory virus I caught at the beginning of April. Any walking is a struggle for my lungs & my mental health is taking a hit. No energy or enthusiasm. This is why I wish people would not spread illnesses.
Beach was looking lovely yesterday, but dammit I have picked up a cold, so now my lungs are shot to shit and I can't walk very far.
April 8, 2025 at 3:23 PM
Beach was looking lovely yesterday, but dammit I have picked up a cold, so now my lungs are shot to shit and I can't walk very far.
Spectacular colours down the beach this afternoon. Starting to feel more human again, long may this sunshine continue
April 5, 2025 at 7:08 PM
Spectacular colours down the beach this afternoon. Starting to feel more human again, long may this sunshine continue
A tad misty, but pleasant on my walk today. I am trying to make the most of whatever Serotonin can build up, because everything else is currently "AARG!" #SeasideViews #Walks
March 5, 2025 at 4:33 PM
A tad misty, but pleasant on my walk today. I am trying to make the most of whatever Serotonin can build up, because everything else is currently "AARG!" #SeasideViews #Walks