did vent art abt it and im normal again. huh. turns out if i put the angst somewhere else it stops hurting me.

it was rly only Bad bc i kept feeling like i fucked up everything i touched or said or did and now i get to go "home" and get reminded of all the other ways ive failed outside of work

(first worst was two mondays ago. second worst was the first time i was ever Truly Tired after the end of a work week)

cant go back 2 my old one i had to give it to a family member whose phone broke 🫠

new phone is um. not good at doing the things i want a phone to do.

HUGE fan of this piece. the jaunty energy... the camaraderie........

i cannot wait to weaponize this joke against my coworkers ty for cursing at least four people by proxy

i keep typing out emotional sentences and then doing something visibly physical to ground myself which is A Little Embarassing but um. it really helps me not lose my fucking mind hnasldjkgnhajsfd trying to vary which physical action i perform at least

i miss my grandparents :(

AUGH so embarassed at how volatile i am right now

it took me having a phone related panic attack at work before i realized this tho LMAO. im done overthinking my own decisions! i physically see when it happens, i get jerky and double back on stuff and im still trying to Be Calm. hate med changes hnalskdnglhamdnljn

*as normal as i ever am lmao