Feeling like I am useful is probably the thing that helps me most, next to the money to help me picking up my meds, and cleaning supplies for my wounds.

I don't want any pity. I know people will boo me for talking about it. But please be chill. I only wanted to explain my current situation.

When people critique me on my slow pace for comms however I feel like I shouldn't even take comms. It's not even like I don't want to work, I want to be useful. But I couldn't even care to get up in the morning. I feel useless when I don't work and this is why I do want to pick up comms again.

of the day, hear and see horrifying things that aren't even there, or feel the everlasting pressure to hurt myself.
This basically translates into:
I need support. I need medical necessities like gauze and disinfectant to clean my cuts. I need to take my meds so it's not getting worse. I need help.

I happen to be very mentally ill, be that because I have severe depression and anxiety, being chronically s**ci*al or suffer from paranoid schizophrenia and borderline. There is a lot of things wrong with me. The struggle to live a normal life when you want to end it all pretty much every second

I mean it. They will probably only be colored sketches but I crave to draw rn.

You know it's old because I can barely remember the premise of the drawing. I think they were a set intended to mimic 2-sided dakimakura ;;
#nsfw #nsfwart #fanart #r18

Also! Most of them will be monster or at least somewhat otherwordly ;>