*closes this app and instinctively goes to instagram before i even realize what just happened*

UGH IT TORMENTS ME.

more to come. BUT IM WATCHING U META 👀.

i need to be able to see this relationship with instagram more clearly.

end of this month i’m doing a cold turkey detox for 22 days that i am actually announcing so i have some accountability… and support.

and i know i go to instagram for things i need (like my other addictions).

staying updated, sharing resources, hearing about community events and jobs, sharing about my work, connecting with friends outside my “we text” ⭕️, crying laughing at memes, etc

and like other addictions, i feel this entity outside of me (in this case META which is WORSE cause it’s a fascist CORPORATION) dictating my moves, my emotions, my thinking, my instincts and habits, my coping skills.

and like my other addictions (ex: weed) it has a power over me that undermines my consent and my self-trust

i try to get off it for a time being and break my own agreement. i set boundaries with it (ex: no ig when i wake up) and i break it.

like it def has positives and things that work for me, like all addictions.

ex: i love knowing about community events, sending memes back n forth w friends that literally have me cry laughing, n sharing my hot selfies w a bunch of cuties all at once cause shit is grim n lets at least flirt.