Please someone just idk take me out for good atp idfc

I cant deal with people ,an its too much for me I dont have the fucking facilities for this shit

Im a fucking soul diminishing parasite fuck duck duck I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO i just want to be likeable but my stupid fucking mental problems just get in the way of that and then I get stumped on what to do to retain the limeableness I worked so hard for and its ALL LOST BC I ALWAYS CHOOSE THE WDONG

And I feel like fucking shit rn but I always fucking do and I always drag him into it and he says its not too much but its literally disgusting EVERY DAY I hit rock bottom and he just has to put up with it he's gonna start fucking walking on eggshells around me and I HATE THAT MAN I HATE IT

I CANT DO IT IM NOT BUILT FOR THIS GET MENOUT GET ME OUT

Tell him anything about it because he's gonna think I'm a jealous fuck which I DONT WANT TO BE fml