why is every bit of happiness this world allows me either superficial, transient, or just a lie?

things have gotten significantly worse and i might go soon

How am I meant to deal with any of this

I’m trying my best to find my own path though life but it seems less and less possible as the people with control over my future do everything they can to ruin it

"Sunday monday tuesday
Wednesday thursday friday
I ask what day is it today

Regrettably thinking today will be a good time

Awakening from a dream and reality

Waking up from reality to a dream"

I wanted to post here abt what's bothering me but im too depressed to even do that rn, idk

This is a vent account for @sodamoth.bsky.social, I'm probably going to be posting a lot of depressing stuff here and not much else, follow if you want but I wouldn't recommend it.