i need a priv acc vro i need to stop saying all this on my bsky 😛😛

i wish i never got into art so i wouldnt have so many expectations on me

i dont have any ideas for art anymore honestly. am i in art block again oh good lorddd. theres no way im going back into that artblock i had for atleast HALF A YEAR

i dont WANT to draw phighting but i almost feel like i need to just to get that little bit of dopamine i get when a post blows up. plus my friend wants me to draw phighting anyway so sighhhsss

if i just suck it up and draw phighting or folly again maybe i can get smth like that but theres rlly no passion in it. i draw cats not phighting characters not airports not phighting maps

EVEN THEIR POSTS WITHOUT TAGS BLOW UP. i wish i was like them i wish i could actually draw fandom related art

yes i know that the amt of likes on a post doesnt determine how good my art is its just that i see my friends getting bajillions and bajillions of likes! and i get nothing at all despite me having more followers than them

i wouldnt be surprised if that cat i just drew doesnt even reach 5 likes on twt. sighs

im actually so sick of this its driving me insane bcuz i spend so much time and effort into my art yet barely anyone sees it at all (not even my friends see it)

barely anyone even saw my princess artwork! its fandom related yet bcuz its not a popular character (or maybe its just cuz princess is a CAT) the algorithm doesnt care abt my art at all

all i ever feel like drawing is cats i cant finish a single piece unless its a cat. theres nothing rlly wrong with that of course but no one gaf abt my cat drawings vro

they followed me and forgot abt me and i can tell. not even the first person i considered my oomf sees my posts anymore

ref

the lore is actually pretty interesting ngl