-but this will be the last time I log in here or on XIV again. This is not to guilt trip anyone. This is for my health and wellbeing, as well as that of those who I've made uncomfortable. I am sorry if that is the case, and hope you're able to recover fully.

I want to do that, but I cant if all that happens is that I live in fear and others point fingers rather than try to have a discussion. I'm leaving this website. I'll leave this post and account up for others in case they wanna know what happened-

The internet does have a habit of deeming others guilty because of gossip or malicious popularity contests.

I am not immune to making mistakes or bad calls, I'm only human, and humans constantly have to communicate, learn, and choose to be better.

Its a big debate whether it should even be allowed as a valid form of exploring one's own trauma. I'm not some philosopher. I'm a dude who is trying his best not to tell others they're wrong for how they process shit, and who doesn't wanna assume somebody is a predator without first seeing proof.

To those with trauma, and those without, none should live in fear of something like that. None should have to hear about this shit being talked about lightheartedly or fetishized as pornography meant to be consumed or popularized or normalized.

-who struggles socially because he's very mentally unwell. I Iive in America, which while I am privileged, I am also extremely scared for obvious fucking reasons rn. I shouldn't have to say this, and I don't say it as some kind of "gotcha" but I am also a survivor of sexual assault.

I know people care about the safety of all in this community. It's part of what made me love it. And I agree that we can't stay silent when we know someone is doing things actively harmful, especially to those of us who are in need of defense. I'm a disabled Mex/Japanese trans dude-

Other claimed it to be condoning chld pornography.

Let me say right now I do NOT for that or any kind of content/media that adds to the v real spillover of violence and harm irl. That goes for misogynistic, racist, queerphobic, ableist, & other types of explicitly bigoted media as well.

Whatever reasoning, what mightve been a road paved w good intentions (warning others about a bad actor in the community) lead to so many being retraumatized and witch hunted. In that moment of protectiveness and anger for those I thought had been wrongly accused in the confusion I messed up.

Only that a friend was targeted and hurt because of some artist-that to my knowledge, neither of us really knew-who had drawn CSA, attended a public event of theirs. A claim was made against them they were allowing/okay with this in an attack that spread n hurt so many others.

I genuinely struggled trying to think of what to say here. I didnt know how to word my thoughts and I didn't want to dismiss the seriousness of the claims being made. But I also didn't want to throw innocent ppl under the bus. I entered a situation not knowing the full picture

this is not to say that there isn’t use, worth, and substance to these demonstrations. but anything with a branding team and a rsvp system is defanged by default, and automatically hostile to the most vulnerable. I hope everyone’s politics extend beyond “no kings.” how about no settlers?