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· Aug 18
the United kingdom is a cruel and selfish country, I need to find somewhere I'm loved
my goals for 2026 are to be held by someone who loves me and to see a pussy irl for the first time
December 30, 2025 at 9:06 PM
my goals for 2026 are to be held by someone who loves me and to see a pussy irl for the first time
once again I am consumed by cuddling and kissing dreams
December 30, 2025 at 10:26 AM
once again I am consumed by cuddling and kissing dreams
"I bet you treasure those videos of us three~"
"yeah, nobody ever thought to send me any of those videos..."
"yeah, nobody ever thought to send me any of those videos..."
December 29, 2025 at 8:55 PM
"I bet you treasure those videos of us three~"
"yeah, nobody ever thought to send me any of those videos..."
"yeah, nobody ever thought to send me any of those videos..."
I desperately need to be held and told things are going to be okay
December 28, 2025 at 9:10 AM
I desperately need to be held and told things are going to be okay
having everyone who loves me be on the other side of the world and only being able to see them every 4 to 6 months is starting to get to me
December 28, 2025 at 9:09 AM
having everyone who loves me be on the other side of the world and only being able to see them every 4 to 6 months is starting to get to me
a big problem for me is since my attraction to people involves a lot of physical intimacy and not just sex, when I'm in a lonely and horny mood I can't just jerk off and be satisfied
I need to hold someone and have them hold me and feel their warmth and their breath and their heartbeat and and and
I need to hold someone and have them hold me and feel their warmth and their breath and their heartbeat and and and
December 26, 2025 at 12:58 PM
a big problem for me is since my attraction to people involves a lot of physical intimacy and not just sex, when I'm in a lonely and horny mood I can't just jerk off and be satisfied
I need to hold someone and have them hold me and feel their warmth and their breath and their heartbeat and and and
I need to hold someone and have them hold me and feel their warmth and their breath and their heartbeat and and and
dreaming about cuddling and kissing..
December 26, 2025 at 12:42 PM
dreaming about cuddling and kissing..
I don't like bitching about presents I've received coz it makes me feel like I'm being an entitled asshole, but when it's obvious only two members of your extended family actually bought Christmas gifts for you and distributed them across all your family members, that's a different story
December 25, 2025 at 11:20 PM
I don't like bitching about presents I've received coz it makes me feel like I'm being an entitled asshole, but when it's obvious only two members of your extended family actually bought Christmas gifts for you and distributed them across all your family members, that's a different story
looking through some old pictures and all it did was remind me how those closest to me no longer trust me anywhere near as much as they used to because of my repeatedly shitty behaviour
December 21, 2025 at 11:10 PM
looking through some old pictures and all it did was remind me how those closest to me no longer trust me anywhere near as much as they used to because of my repeatedly shitty behaviour
I need to work on purging impure and harmful thoughts from my mind
December 20, 2025 at 12:35 AM
I need to work on purging impure and harmful thoughts from my mind
I can feel myself entering the shame part of the "aggressively horny > shame > feeling nothing > repeat" cycle I'm constantly in
December 19, 2025 at 10:34 PM
I can feel myself entering the shame part of the "aggressively horny > shame > feeling nothing > repeat" cycle I'm constantly in
I really gotta cool my shit
December 19, 2025 at 4:54 PM
I really gotta cool my shit
realised that a lot of the sex I've had recently had been kinda unsatisfying ngl, like just going through the actions and motions with no build-up or aftercare
maybe that's why I think about my most recent mistake so often, there was so much build up in that and it made me feel actually appreciated
maybe that's why I think about my most recent mistake so often, there was so much build up in that and it made me feel actually appreciated
December 18, 2025 at 9:09 AM
realised that a lot of the sex I've had recently had been kinda unsatisfying ngl, like just going through the actions and motions with no build-up or aftercare
maybe that's why I think about my most recent mistake so often, there was so much build up in that and it made me feel actually appreciated
maybe that's why I think about my most recent mistake so often, there was so much build up in that and it made me feel actually appreciated
"adam sandler's click"
December 13, 2025 at 11:33 PM
"adam sandler's click"
I can't wait until I'm in my 40s and I can enter my milf era and sit around doing things in places and have people think I look hot even when it's dumb shit like reading dr who and the zarbi with my huge nerd glasses
December 11, 2025 at 10:09 PM
I can't wait until I'm in my 40s and I can enter my milf era and sit around doing things in places and have people think I look hot even when it's dumb shit like reading dr who and the zarbi with my huge nerd glasses
I miss physical intimacy
[this user last experienced physical intimacy less than a week ago]
[this user last experienced physical intimacy less than a week ago]
December 10, 2025 at 8:52 AM
I miss physical intimacy
[this user last experienced physical intimacy less than a week ago]
[this user last experienced physical intimacy less than a week ago]
during my two weeks in the states my "I need to end my life" thoughts happened maybe only a few times
I've been back in England for two full days and they're happening every few hours
I think this may be connected to being in England
I've been back in England for two full days and they're happening every few hours
I think this may be connected to being in England
December 7, 2025 at 5:30 PM
during my two weeks in the states my "I need to end my life" thoughts happened maybe only a few times
I've been back in England for two full days and they're happening every few hours
I think this may be connected to being in England
I've been back in England for two full days and they're happening every few hours
I think this may be connected to being in England
I don't even know what I'm doing over here anymore, it feels like my life has no trajectory or achievable goals and I'm just going to rot away on this forsaken island until I don't have any life left
December 7, 2025 at 3:26 PM
I don't even know what I'm doing over here anymore, it feels like my life has no trajectory or achievable goals and I'm just going to rot away on this forsaken island until I don't have any life left
had my first wet dream in months last night. they always catch me off guard since they only happen a few times a year at most, but I'm feeling weirdly embarrassed and guilty about this one? it was all really vanilla stuff as well so idk why I'm so put off by it
December 6, 2025 at 7:50 PM
had my first wet dream in months last night. they always catch me off guard since they only happen a few times a year at most, but I'm feeling weirdly embarrassed and guilty about this one? it was all really vanilla stuff as well so idk why I'm so put off by it
my dick is so unused it hurts the day after I jerk it even a little surely this isn't healthy
December 4, 2025 at 2:56 PM
my dick is so unused it hurts the day after I jerk it even a little surely this isn't healthy
is it bad I had a dream where I was cuddling someone I've never seen a picture of, let alone met irl
I could just sense it was them y'know
I could just sense it was them y'know
November 30, 2025 at 3:00 PM
is it bad I had a dream where I was cuddling someone I've never seen a picture of, let alone met irl
I could just sense it was them y'know
I could just sense it was them y'know
can you IMAGINE how funny it'd be if I died in my sleep tonight, my best friend finding me in her basement mourning me and how our wounds never healed and how the rift between us never closed up; all on the day her girlfriend starts her weekly visit where she stays for a few days, hilarious!
November 29, 2025 at 9:56 PM
can you IMAGINE how funny it'd be if I died in my sleep tonight, my best friend finding me in her basement mourning me and how our wounds never healed and how the rift between us never closed up; all on the day her girlfriend starts her weekly visit where she stays for a few days, hilarious!
now I've been thoroughly shamed for my actions that hickey on my boob is a very uncomfortable reminder of my mistakes and I just want it gone grraaahhhh
November 29, 2025 at 5:35 PM
now I've been thoroughly shamed for my actions that hickey on my boob is a very uncomfortable reminder of my mistakes and I just want it gone grraaahhhh
she keeps saying it isn't over and she'll move on from it but deep down I know as soon as I'm back in England and she doesn't have to humble me coz I'm staying at her house and have nowhere to go, it's so fucking over
November 27, 2025 at 10:09 PM
she keeps saying it isn't over and she'll move on from it but deep down I know as soon as I'm back in England and she doesn't have to humble me coz I'm staying at her house and have nowhere to go, it's so fucking over
only now realising the hypocrisy of my bestie thinking it's okay to fuck me without telling her girlfriend, but gets upset and mad for days when her girlfriend fucks me after asking for permission to do so and receiving said permission
November 27, 2025 at 4:19 PM
only now realising the hypocrisy of my bestie thinking it's okay to fuck me without telling her girlfriend, but gets upset and mad for days when her girlfriend fucks me after asking for permission to do so and receiving said permission