// mh +

Actually. It will happen. That's my mentality going forward. Even if I have to drop one for the other. Even if I'm told "no." I just need to advocate for myself. That's my resolution going into next year. I will drop the midwest a visit.

Esta bien hasta ahora. Estoy practicar los básicos. Quiero ser más fluidez en el futuro.

// mh ~

It's the least I can do, especially considering I was allowed to fly to Louisiana on my own this year for a seminar.

No joke, I struggle with keeping up with cleaning my room a lot. There's one day I will do it, but the dust/dander/hair *always* comes back in less than a week and it becomes an afterthought for weeks, or months. Our air handler is not doing enough to filter most of it out.

// mental health -

I know I'm supposed to get in touch with my local psychiatrist so they can better understand my situation and make any adjustments if needed. My weekday routine makes this very difficult.

// mental health -

.. maybe I'm being a little hard on myself. But y'know? I feel like this has occurred more than once in the past month.

// mental health -

My sleep cycle remains unaffected, but.. The motivation to participate in society is almost nonexistent.

// mental health -

Like, I'm trying to bring myself to do anything for myself lately and it's just.. not happening.

// mental health (-)

If it weren't for my medication I would be crashing tf out sooner. But honestly, idk if it will change my situation much either.

// mental health (-)

College dropout, can't design webpages to save own life, can't art to save own life, can't hold money in savings account, can't sustain own hobbies, can't fix a house, can't do a car wash by hand, etc.

I should add, if I follow you first I 100% trust you to follow back. Though you don't have to.