it's also funny to imagine a nationalist dark elf buoyant armiger falling in love with a Khajiit

really enjoying an outdated version of arvesa - an armiger's tale. not perfect and the author plans on updating some story beats etc in it. real. but also if i update it I stop being able to make her my gf cus she was apparently never meant to be bisexual. huge L. all dark elf women are a little gay

GREAT. AND NOW I FOUND OUTT HERES GONNA BE A LIVE ACTION LEGEND OF ZELDA MOVIE. ITS SO FUCKING OVER DUDE

i want to be around buildings that are older than my dad and i want to experience nice smells and feel the organic design of a city. i really really miss madrid when i feel like this, for example. i just miss whatever the fuck is over there that isnt here.

being in a desert is painful and cool at the same time. its like, nothing. i dont want to be around nothing. and then because im in santa fe, what is outside nothing just smells like the blood of colonialist murder and its echoes, the result of which is just good old american class stratification

more and more do i feel like there is a shadow that clouds my vision where i used to see the breadth of the world and possibility. more and more am i realizing this is not the same thing as my previous suicidality and depression--it is real, and it is horrible, and it is made by the bourgeois

america just refuses to place itself in the context of the entirety of human history. that generative AI is set upon us in a world where america dominates is no coincidence to me. it is an existential threat that seeks to create a history obliterating amalgamation of feelings with no connection.

theres things im grateful for about where im at now but i miss...europe a lot lol. like i miss being around things that i could tell were older than me in an actually meaningful way that were respected as such. america is hollow at its core

clown bunny girl