it’s just really tiring

i don’t hate what im doing here either, i just don’t care! i’m just numb, unhappy, but i see no way of fixing it

i don’t care to go, don’t care to stay, there’s nothing i really want to do

but i just don’t care at all. my heart’s not there. it’s just tiring

so now i have this plan going on, something i decided on years ago, and im spending so much time and effort and money trying to make the move happen more permanently

and while i could avoid some, most of them come from within

when i was young i dreamt about moving to the other side of the world to escape my problems as if that would solve them