its still disheartening seeing those with hyper-niche fetishes going after other ppl with hyper-niche fetishes as if theyll somehow be spared from all of this by virtue of good optics or something

Idk i just want to feel ok again, joint pain is preferable to being unable to focus without pain

My logical assumption is that they originally wanted to make Celine shittier, then were told it was too far/story changed, and we ended up with the badly developed mum death/shitty Celine story we got which is basically nothing but dregs

Fr!
Tho even then my mental illness and inferiority complex would made me put unrealistic expectations on myself for what they ask

I don't do commissions for a reason, I actually lose money by doing them. They're stressful, I struggle drawing things i don't want to draw, it makes me lose time from my hobbies etc.

Like a proper bed laptop desk and cooling stand because my legs can hurt terribly using a chair. I'm a gamer but not a huge gamer, I don't really play triple A as much as I just watch em etc.
Hells my old laptop could barely run clip studio and I definitely couldn't draw in it
Still feel guilty...

Like I've avoided doing things like art exchanges for years because of this exact thing so it happening AGAIN the second I reach out is really just shit.