it feels a little like the ending of picard. new crew. new vibe. new faces. and yet maintains the same seriousness it started with.

lower decks has found a special place in so many trekkies hearts. mine included.

may it now forever live long and prosper. 🖖

yet somehow each character has grown so much this season that it doesn’t feel that hard to see this as the only natural and intended end to the show.

and of course it softly places the setup for a spinoff or continuation show for some other company to pick up.

it feels like 2-3 seasons flew by and while it ends naturally (unlike some shows im sure) theres so many little ‘fight and make up’ bits you can tell whole episodes or seasons could’ve told those stories better.

I felt that the final two scenes as they race to save the day and the concluding bits and pieces nodded to little ideas and character arcs that the writers now won’t get to tell. at least not the way they intended for sure.

still it was an affirming and enlightening read.

question everything. good things for everyone should mean everyone. be firm. be honest.

and maybe i’ll try making some of that ‘nostalgic’ bs ‘a simpler time’ art but as if my idea of utopia existed and someone ruined it and thats why life sucks xd

i am constantly wonder when i will be attacked. when ill get disowned or bullied for being me. when someone will ‘bump’ into me on the street.

but for one reason or another it hasn’t happened. yet. and the more i discover i am and become further from the norm, the more the anxiety grows.

maybe this happens in hong kong. or australia. or in the uk. just in different forms.

and because so much of my life is and has been offline. and i never stay in one place long enough to learn the norm or be part of a community long enough to be hit by a storm.

i simply think but do not know.

i also wonder how much of this behaviour and discourse is something i’m less exposed to or directly relate to because of americanism.

or because i’ve lived and grown up overseas, as an expat, as a third culture kid, and have no ‘home’ or context to reflect through.