And the first one question this woman asks is “how many dates have you been on?” with a pause and skepticism written all over her face.
And I get it. We’ve both been through a lot, it’s hard to trust.
But like, first of all, i didn’t even say if I had said yes. (I haven’t, because I do need -

And I want to be excited. I hate how paranoid I have become over the last 10 years.
I just want to try and not completely get into my head about it.

Which is unfortunately a wild experience for me at this point. But we’ve been vibing really well. He’s so good at communicating and doesn’t like, over do it either. We’re also pretty compatible sexually. This is a person I am definitely excited about.

Having many feelings and thoughts most of which revolve around being terrified he’ll realize just how much I am not worth this type of behavior just like everyone else has.

I feel like I must have a very off putting face and my weird anxiety does not help, so i don’t blame anyone for not talking to me….it’s just nice when it happens 😅🤗