it’s in fucking pisces

does anyone know how to astral project? i need to jork my spiritual peanits instead of my regular one

like i could beat my meat rn but it would not satisfy. it would not quench my thirst. it is another kind of arousal entirely

don’t make ME, the person i am now, out to be someone who has a “childish outlook on life” bc you think i have a more compassionate view of people. i just LIKE others, and i LIKE people. my personhood is
not to be played with or misconstrued. have more substance than that.

rant over ‼️

in conclusion i am SICK!!!! of people calling me naïve for the wrong reasons. i’ve been around the block, i’ve done bad things, i’ve been a bad person, and i’m better now. i’m a human being. stop downplaying the people i’ve been because it makes YOU feel better about who you are now.

my optimism/idealism is a CONSCIOUS decision. in my own head, i am a massive pessimist by nature. i TRY to not be that way because, if i am, i am miserable to be and to be around. i am not optimistic or idealist because of my naïveté. i am optimistic because of my negative experiences.

i hate the implication that optimism=naïveté. i am not “innocent” or “naïve” because i lack knowledge or experience—i am optimistic because my life requires it. if i do not allow myself to be idealist, an optimist, then i fall into ACTUAL mental illness and medical depression.

what bothers me is the reason that i hear most often. “you’re so bright.” “you’re so optimistic.” “you’re such an idealist.” “you do so much to give people a good outlook.”

EAT MY ACTUAL ASS. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD I WORKED TO BELIEVE MY OWN ADVICE. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD I HAD TO TRY???