*sends ALL the hugs*

Thankies, me too ^^; All tied up is quite literally what will be happening >.>;

Oh yeah, 5 days of antibiotics, so that scuppered a few days of drinking! But (no pun intended) luckily there was no pain or anything, just a worrying amount of blood. The A&E weren't worried about it at all and sent me on my way saying I'd get contacted later. Apparently now is later.

Thankies ^^; I'm sure it'll be fine, I hope :P

My arse blew out the day before I flew out to my all inclusive holiday, because of course it did. >.<

Oh awesome, just in time for xmas.... Hrm. Suddenly there is a new box under the tree to unwrap.

Haemorrhoid banding apparently. I thought I was just going in for a scope >.>;

OH! True!

This is supposed to be my clean account >.<

This is going to be tough. I woke up this morning wishing everything would just end. I don't know how hard I'm gonna be able to fight against those thoughts because I've never been able to stand up for 'myself'.

For someone like me who struggles to even care about myself, it just gives me more and more evidence that I shouldn't care about myself. Yet then there are the few and the family that push against that and all you feel is guilt that you're burdening people with your pain.

It really hurts to see so many times you've put so much of yourself into a friendship or any kind of relationship and then something better for them comes along... that you've usually introduced them to. And the next thing you know, you're forgotten.